Don't Let Me Go

Chapter 11

"I have nothing to say to you Gemma." I said. I sounded really pissed off. Well, that's because I was!

"Oh, well lucky for you, I do!" Gemma said in an annoying, high pitched voice. She sounded like a character out of Mean Girls.

"You're pathetic..."

"I'm pathetic? That's too funny Morgan! Sweetheart, have you looked in the mirror lately?"

"Leave her alone Gemma..." Eleanor said softly.

"Oh stay out of it El. No one was talking to you, not that anyone ever does..." Gemma snapped back at her.

Eleanor looked like she was about to cry. She's very sensitive. Louis wrapped his arms around her.

"Gemma, stop it. Eleanor didn't do anything to you. Neither did Louis or anyone else but me. If you want to be mad at someone, be mad at me. Say whatever you want to me, just not my friends. Got it?"

"Bravo Morgan! You know, you've really got this good girl act down. I never knew you were such a great actress!"

It took every ounce of me to stop myself from smacking her.

"You're a really sick person, you know that?" I said.

"Well look who's talking..." Gemma said with a smile.

"Stop it Gemma! You're making her really upset!" Niall screamed.

"Upset?! I'm, making HER, upset?! How do you think I felt Niall?! Harry was important to me, too! I loved him, too! You're all acting like she's the only one who was affected by this! I sat at home, crying and upset, while everyone had a pity party for Morgan! Then, when everyone else who clearly cared about Harry were still upset and not even close to getting over him, she replaced him! He's been dead, what, 4, maybe 5 weeks and she's already gotten herself a new boyfriend! Then, come to find out it's Zayn?! One of Harry's bestfriends?" She was crying hysterically now.

She composed herself enough to continue talking.

"I mean, honestly Morgan, did you even ever love him? Because the way I see it, you didn't. If you did, we wouldn't be in this situation, now would we? Everyone, expects me, to feel bad, for you? Truth is, I don't." she said softly.

My jaw dropped. My eyes started to fill with tears.

"I think it's time you left my house Gemma. I'm not gonna let you come in here and harass my friends, so get out." Louis said.

"Gemma, I'm so sorry. I never thought of it that way. I never, thought about how you would feel. I'm such a bad friend. I completely understand why you're mad. If I were you, I'd hate me too. Actually, I hate myself..."

Gemma looked shocked. She had gotten what she wanted. I was hurt, crying, broken, and apologising.

She stood up.

"One last thing, I loved Harry. More than anything. So don't you DARE, say I didn't... Got it?"

She shook her head.

We sat in silence, the two of us still in tears.

I looked up at her. For the first time in a while, I didn't see Gemma the Villian, I saw Gemma the Friend. The one I went to the mall with, and blasted "Call Me Maybe" so loud that the neighbours were just about ready to kill us. I didn't want to fight anymore. I wanted my friend back.

"I'm sorry too Morgan. I went all crazy and psychotic on you. If I were you, I wouldn't forgive me. After everything I said and did? Never. But I guess I'm asking anyways. I was feeling so many different things. Hurt, lost, confused, upset... I just didn't know how to cope with it all so I took it out on you. It was just the easiest way to get my anger out. You're such a great person. You made Harry so happy. He wanted to marry you someday you know? I want to go back to the way it was. Before all of this happened. I would give anything to take it all back, I would. I can't express how sorry I am. I was way out of line and I didn't mean anything I said before. Please, forgive me?"

She gave me that puppy dog look. She was my bestfriend? How could I stay mad at her? As much as I wanted to hit her, I wanted my friend back.

I hugged her for what seemed like a lifetime.

"Well that was unexpected..." Louis said to Niall. Niall agreed.

"I guess this means you forgive me?" Gemma asked.

"Of course I do!" I told her.

"I know we just made up and I don't want to make you mad again, but can we talk about everything, alone? I just wanted to clear a few things up." She said.

Great. We were back to normal and now she wanted to screw it up again? Oh Gemma...

"Uh, sure..." I said. I didn't really, but if it was going to make her happy and fix things, I'd do it.

Zayn mouthed something like "Are you sure?" and I mouthed back yes. Everyone left the room.

"I know you loved Harry. I know that. I always have. I only said those things because I was angry and wanted to make you mad too. It was stupid, and wrong of me, and I'm sorry." Gemma said.

"It's okay. I understand. We all do things we're not so proud of sometimes..." I said.

"I just wanted to know, why? Why did you decide to get with Zayn so quickly? How could you? Most people were still getting over what happened and you're kissing Zayn? Why?"

Well that was extremely rude. I thought she was apologising. I know I'm not an expert on apologies, but I know thats not a very good way to do it.

"I, uh, well, I don't know. I guess Zayn was just so sweet and supportive, that I just fell in love with him. I couldn't help it. He's just so... I don't know. All I know is, I love Zayn, but I don't think I'll ever be able to forget Harry or what we had."

"Don't forget him. Whatever you do, don't forget him. You don't have to never love again, just don't forget Harry. I'm happy for you and Zayn. I really am. You're such a sweet girl and you deserve to be happy."

Wow. I never thought I'd hear her say that. She was starting to sound like Louis and Harry.

"Thank you Gemma. I'm glad you feel that way. It means a lot to me."

I was glad this was over. I just hope she's truly sorry...

Gemma went to leave.

"Oh, and Gemma. One more thing..."

"You always have one more thing to say don't you?" she laughed. "What is it?"

"Did you tell Anne, about anything? Does she hate me now?"

"Well, I uh, sort of." she said.

Great...