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DAYNA

"Okay... open your eyes!" Oshane said.

In front of me were property magazines.

"What's this?"

"Well... After the weekend away and me and you getting along so much better. I think the next step is to start looking for somewhere to call our own... together."

"What's the rush?"

"There's no rush. But I think it's something we should think about... Well I've thought about it anyway. We should make it happen. You can't deny that we make each other happy."

"Exactly! I've just got used to saying I have a man. Now I'm looking at houses. Oshane just take it easy. Once we move in we have no get away. No space. No time apart. Let us embrace what we got and make the most out of it now. I'm not saying no to looking for somewhere but I am saying not right now." I said to him.

"Fine Fine Fine. But don't take too long." He said before kissing me.

Before you know it we was at it like rabbits. Lately my sex drive has gone through the roof and I no longer crave for extras to join us. I'm just happy with me and Oshane. I don't know what's gotten into me but what I do know is I think I'm falling for him. He makes me so happy. I've adapted to now saying I have a man and not I have a girlfriend. I honestly couldn't have predicted this was how my life was going to turn out. I honestly thought my life was going to be me and Adrianna. Funny how things change.

Speaking of Adrianna, she messaged me saying she thinks she's left a top at mine. I don't recall but I know she would more notice it than me. So I told her to come over in the evening. I stayed at Oshane's until it was time to go and meet Adrianna.

When I arrived she was already outside waiting for me.

"You been here long?" I asked.

"Nah, about five minutes

"Oh okay well come in and you can have a look for the top." I said as I let her in.

"Erm... I have a confession." She said as she closed the door.

"What's that?"

"There's no top..."

Confusion filled my face mixed with annoyance because I had no intention coming home today and I came because she was banging on about this one top.

"So why the hell did you say there was?"

"If I said I wanted to just talk to you how long would it have taken you to actually arrange for us to meet up? I know you Dayna... you would have dragged it out."

She had a point.

"Okay so what do you want to talk about?"

"You... us."

"Us? Did we... You... not close that chapter?"

"Yes, and I don't know why. I half hoped you would have said no you wasn't letting me close the chapter. But you never. It's not your fault. I know I've pushed you away. But Dayna you're all I know. I've never stopped loving you. I was just mad. I was mad you put me back into hospital. But after a few sessions of counselling, as well as my mother constantly in my ear, I've realised I was wrong and you was right for putting me back in hospital. I didn't deal with anything correct. I got jealous and couldn't hide it. I know the sleeping with one guy was my idea but it seemed like you and yours built a friendship. A friendship we didn't have; and I know it's because of my mental health why we don't have that. Dayna you're an amazing woman and I don't want to lose you. I know it may take time and I'm here to put in the work. I just can't lose you. Please... Dayna I'm sorry. I love you."

The sincerity in everything Adrianna said had me feeling like I gave up on her, on us too quickly. But on the same account she didn't make it easy.

"Adri... you can't just come up here and put all of that on me. How is that fair?"

"I know I know which is why I am sorry and willing to prove to you how sorry I am and how much you mean to me." She said as she came over and kissed me.

Just like that Adrianna had me feeling weak.

Damn I think I still love her.

"Adri... wait. Kisses ain't gon make up for everything. You've now got my mind messed up. You came here the other day talking about closing chapter..."

"I know! I was wrong! As soon as I saw you I fell in love all over again. Please don't give up on us. Please." She said and kept trying to kiss me.

"Adri... Adri... Adri Stop!!"

"Is there someone else?"

Uh oh.

"It's not about if there's someone else. You are putting a lot on me right now. I need some time. I'll call you okay?"

"Okay. Don't leave it too long though Dayna. Or else ima just turn back up here. I refuse to lose you. I'll fight for you if I have to..." She said as she left.

I sat on my step trying to take everything that just happened in.

Why can't my life be so simple?

Just as I got used to having a boyfriend my ex comes back saying she wants me. Now I'm torn on what to do. Despite everything I guess I still love Adrianna. But all it takes is for her to be off her meds' again and we'll be back to square one.
Oshane has been nothing but good to me. Even when it was just sex.

Do I really stop trying to build something new with him and give Adrianna another chance or do I keep Adrianna in the past and focus on a future with Oshane?

I really didn't know what I was going to do but what I did know was I would have to make a decision and fast!

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