#12 :: A Change Of Heart.

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TIA

Today was a slow one at work. I work in an old peoples home. I like my job because it's mainly to watch them, talk to them and play games with them. All the elderly people take to me. I'm the youngest of the workers; and the prettiest. Both the men and women always tell me that. I was sitting in Moreen's room when she woke up.

"Oh hello Tia... I had a dream about you." She said to me.

Moreen was my fave. I think because she was from the Caribbean I could relate so much with her. When she cussed everyone; more time they never knew what she was saying but I did.

"Oh you did now? Well what was this dream about?" I asked.

"You... Getting married. It was beautiful. You was beautiful. You looked so happy."

I smiled at her. This isn't the first time she's had this dream.

"I don't know about me getting married..." I started to say but she cut me off.

"Nonsense! Of course you will! And just like me you will live longer than your husband!" She said and laughed. I laughed with her.

"I don't know Mor. I mean I don't really trust men. So to have a boyfriend let alone a husband is a very big push." I told her.

"You don't have a boyfriend?" She asked.

"Nope..."

"Are you gay?"

I giggled.

"No."

"Then why the hell do you not have a boyfriend?"

"I don't want one... Okay well maybe I do but I can't guarantee my heart won't get broken and my feelings won't get played with. So I prefer to not get to that stage."

"So you're scared of commitment?"

"No.. I'm scared they won't commit."

"Honey, sometimes you have to go through downs so you can come up smiling. It sucks that that's how life works. But if you run and hide from it, it will only be worse in the future."

I just smiled. This was something others never understood and I wasn't changing my ways.

"Besides... I want to attend your wedding. So you need to get married. Even though chances are I won't get to."

"IF... And that's a big IF; I was to get married. Of course I would invite you."

"No no no, not like that. This dream.. I watched from high above. I've never had dreams like that before. So that only meant one thing. My time on this earth is running out."

I hated when they spoke like that. Especially Moreen as she was my favourite.

"You have more fight in you than you know..."

"Please. I'm ready to go. I'm tired." She said and closed her eyes.

That worried me. But I soon heard the light snores and was more than happy to know she was just sleeping.

Work was over and I really wanted some sex. I called Kenan. He never answered.

Weird.

He always answers. Just then a message came through. It was Kenan:

Kenan: Yo. Wassup?

I looked at my phone.

Who is he talking to like that?

I called again. Not really a fan of this message thing when I can say I want sex, pick the location then bam. Again he doesn't answer. Another message comes through:

Kenan: Message me.

I'm looking at my phone dumbstruck because I really can't believe this. I messaged him back.

Me: Erm.. Am I interrupting or?

Kenan: Kinda. I'm watching a film. You good?

Still speechless because he never speaks to me like this.

Me: Yeah I'm good. Just wanted my back blown out. 😏

Kenan: Oh. Yeah.. Another time, yeah b?

B? Who the hell is B?

Me: Am I missing something here? Is there an issue?

Kenan: Should there be?

Me: Nah, but you seem salty about something. This isn't still about the other night is it?

Kenan: Lol. Salty? Over what? Not like you're my girl or anything. Ima shout you when I'm free yeah. Cool.

Well shit then. I started up my car and drove home.

What the hell was his problem?

I was annoyed that he was acting up because I needed sex. I wasn't the type to sleep with multiple guys. I have only ever slept with five and the current was acting up!

Well.. Looks like I got to pleasure myself tonight. Not what I wanted at all.
Didn't appreciate Kenan acting up either. But it's fine; I'll get to the bottom of it and I know exactly how...

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