#12 :: A Change Of Heart.

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VANESSA

If I was watching my life on one of these reality tv shows I would be calling myself an idiot. I have a man who loves me and has never cheated on me and has now proposed and yet here I am confused about what to do with another man who has cheated and only really wants me now because I'm taken. That's what it is. If I was single, he wouldn't want to know. Trust and believe that.

I was definitely struggling to come to a decision and I needed to do so fast! So I decided to have a girls night in and catch up. I hadn't seen the girls in a while and it seemed like we could all do with a catch up. I got some bottles of wine and some nachos. That was our favourite.  The girls came in one by one starting with Dayna, followed by Nia and then Lexy and lastly Tia.

"Right! I have enough bottles to last us through the night. Well... not you Nia... I got you juice." I said.

"Well... I'm gonna need some juice too..." Dayna said.

Everyone spun around.

"Well this makes it easier... ima need juice too." Tia said.

"Baby fever is really amongst us." I said and grabbed some juices.

"Well more wine for me! I need it." Lexy said.

"Okay okay. Let's go in order. Tia...spill."

Tia told us everything about her and Blaze then completely shocked us with Kenan's name being mentioned. She also told us about the situation at work with Moreen. She really got herself into a pickle. She was a mess and wouldn't stop crying. Nia comforted her. They was both crying. I knew Nia felt bad for not being by her twins side but they both had things going on at the same time.

"You're not going to go through this alone. We're going to find places near each other and no matter what... I've got you. I'm sorry I've been so MIA but you know why. That stops today. I shouldn't disappear on you guys because at the end of the day you lot have and will always be there for me." Nia said.

"Tia... what happened with Moreen... it's not your fault. I know you feel like it is but she wanted to go and when someone wants to go it doesn't matter what anyone else wants. They will do what they want. See it as she wanted her last moments to be with you. Look at it that way." Lexy said.

"I just fear one day I'll get found out."

"I think if that was going to happen that would have happened already." Dayna added.

"They're right." I said.

"Really? I guess talking to you guys about it I feel  bit better. Everything is getting on top and it's not good for me or the baby."

"What are you going to do about being pregnant?" Nia asked me.

"I'm not having another abortion. I did that and it broke me. I'm keeping this baby. Even if it is Blaze's."

"You have to tell them Tia. They deserve to know."

"Can't I just disappear have the baby then pluck hair from them both and run a DNA?" She said in her baby voice.

"NO!!" We all said.

"I don't want to seem like some hoe!"