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Ten

HANNAH

Everything is just going completely wrong for me. It’s not like this is a surprise though, my life was always a piece of shit. Yes, my parents bought every single thing I wanted when I was a kid, but that doesn’t make me a happy person, just a spoiled one. So any time I felt sad about some stupid thing that happened at school, like a whole bunch of people mocking me because I was quiet, I could just ask my dad to bring me some new toy and feel better about myself.

I guess you can say I’m one of those girls who complain about their lives when they actually have everything. But I never saw it like that. My mother was never able to stop for a second to read me a story and my father was never able to tell her to do it when he came back after all day working at his damn company. I had to go through eighth grade twice because they never cared if I was actually learning something, they’d just pay for my education.

And of course, outside my family drama, it all gets better. I found myself two best friends, Summer and Ashton, gosh I was happy when I met them. I could finally have people to have some actual fun with, we’d just hang out for hours and never run out of subject. It was great.

It’s still great, but well… There were some changes.

I’d notice Ashton’s constant looks at Summer and his desperate need to be there for her all the time. But she would never look around her and see him with different eyes, and I’d feel bad for Ashton. So, even though I was always beside him, it was Summer he wanted. The one who didn't care about him, who didn't have any interest in him back then, while I was willing to do everything to get a little bit more of his attention.

It just seemed quite unfair sometimes. It’s like I was looking from the outside him falling in love with my best friend, that hurt. But I was fine, I kept my efforts to always be there for both Ashton and Summer. Though I always felt kinda bad for him, at least I knew I wouldn’t have to watch them being happy on their own and putting me aside, I knew I wasn’t gonna be able to handle that.

But now I had just betrayed Ashton’s trust, I've told Summer that he’s been hidden what Logan did. I didn't mean to though, it wasn't planned. But it was done, and I can't change things.

I only wish I could be prepared for the consequences. I know Ashton will come talk to me, and I know I'll hear things that I don't wanna hear, but I have my defenses and I'll use them the best way I can. I just have to ignore the fact that my heart has been beating fast since Summer left my place yesterday.

I jump startled when I hear the knock on my door. I know it’s Ashton and my body seems to not be able to move. He knocks again, harder this time and I force myself to get up from my couch.

I don’t want to face him.

ASHTON

I don’t wait for Hannah to invite me in, I simply pass through her and enter the place.

“Why the hell are you being such a bitch Hannah?!”

I feel the rage taking over me quickly.

“Ashton I…”

“What’s wrong with you?! Why would you tell her about Logan?!”

“She deserved to know Ash!” She says.

“No! She just deserved someone better than Logan! I am better than him Hannah!”

“I couldn’t hide this anymore, I’m sorry. I was feeling so guilty!”

“And you decide to tell her now?!  When things are finally starting to go right for me?!” She bites her bottom lip so it would stop shaking “Say something!” I raise my voice.

“I’m sorry, alright?! But when things were going so great for you and Summer, I wasn’t fine at all and you didn’t see it!”

I raise my arms in disbelief “And now you’re getting your revenge?! How was I supposes to know you’re not fine?! You could have said something for fuck sakes!”

“No, I couldn’t! You were supposed to notice Ashton! But you can’t see anything even if it’s right in front of you! The only person you see is Summer!” The tears start falling down her cheeks and her breath gets heavier.

“What does Summer have to do with all of this?! You hurt her feelings as well, you know? If you were upset with me you can just say it, but leave her out of it!”

“Oh, of course, you have to protect her” She rolls her eyes at me “We know each other for so many years and you never saw me Ash! You never gave me a single chance!”

“What the fuck are you talking about Hannah?!”

She closes her eyes and hides her face in her hands, taking a deep breath.

“It’s just I’ve been so confuse since…” Her words are no more than a muffled whisper mixed to her cry.

“Since what Hannah?!”

“Since that night we slept together Ashton!”

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Sorry that this was extremely short, but I just wanted to give you guys a little bit of Hannah’s point of view in this whole story.

I’ll make it up to you on the next chapter I promise ;)

Thanks for reading anyway xx