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taehyung, tapes

requested, inspired by the series '13 reasons why'

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tae's pov

i was y/n's best friend, she was the closest person in my life. all the more reason i was so shocked when i heard she had.. committed suicide.

she never expressed any symptoms of suicidal thoughts nor did she tell me anything was wrong was her.

i was angry and upset at the same time, maybe if i had known i could've saved her.

it was a normal saturday, i woke up, did the normal business and walked downstairs where i was greeted by my 3 best friends - jungkook, jimin & hoseok.

all of my friends were close to y/n as well, but i was the friend she always came to.

"tae, there's a package for you on the dining table" hobi said.

curiously, i grabbed the cardboard box and took it up to my room. i didn't order anything online, so what could it be?

i took some scissors and cut the sellotape on either side.

as i opened the box i noticed a name and a bunch of tapes on underneath it.

what surprised me more that is was from y/n, i rushed downstairs with the box to tell the boys, they would be surprised too.

"hey guys! y/n sent me something, and it's a bunch of old tapes."

"what? y/n? holy shit" jimin says, the reaction was the same for all members. they rushed towards me in the living room where i had placed the tapes on the coffee table.

there were 4 old fashioned cassette tapes all numbered.

"shit, i don't have anything that plays these things." i say, gutted.

"i've got an old walkman, hold on" hobi says, rushing into his room to fetch it. he comes back downstairs panting and hands it to me.

i took out tape one and slowly inserted it into the machine and pressed play.

"hello boys and girls, y/n l/n live and in stereo"

we was all was surprised by the voice, it had been a long time since the boys and i heard the voice of y/n.

"I hope you're ready, because you're about to hear the story of my life, more specifically.. why i ended it."

i sit down on the floor next to jimin, ready to finally hear why my best friend had took her own life, something that i had never discovered because she didn't leave a note or anything of the sort.

"if you're listening to this.. you're one of the reasons why"

what? how could we be the reason for her death?

"so when did you decide to kiss me jungkook? i'm going to tell you the very first thought i had during my very first kiss..

i could tell you was eating lamb skewers before haha.. no but really, it wasn't bad.

it wasn't the weird kisses where you shoved your tongue down my throat.. it was beautiful,

but beautiful memories eventually get twisted. you started to brag and spread lied - it got turned into something that was so far from the truth.

of course, something sexy and interesting is much more believable than the boring old truth, right?"

the tape ended and all the boys looked at jungkook, not angry but disappointed.