Heart, Soul, and Mind

Gaining Control

Elsa's P.O.V.

I was scared. Terrified. After what happened to my precious angel, Jack and I set up double the defenses around the castle. Even then, the memory of what happened that day haunts Estefania. I would see her just sitting around in her room doing absolutely nothing, sometimes getting too sad that she can't control her powers and ice bursts all around her. now when I walk into her room, she'd already formed a blizzard. "Estefania, calm down," I'd tell her.

"It's hard! It hurts! Help me!" she would cry out. I remember I did the same when I was young.

"It's going to be fine. Just don't feel it and think of happy thoughts." She would do as I say but moments later, she would start wincing and ice would shoot out in all directions. Once, it almost hit me. She saw me and nearly started crying. I steadied myself ands tried to reassure her but she would refuse to understand that I was alright and would cry.

"I can't control it, mama," she would cry to me. I felt sorry for her. I would do anything to take her place. I knew how that felt. It's happened to me before.

Flashback

Papa: The gloves will help. *puts on gloves* See? Conceal it.

Me: Don't feel it.

Both: Don't let it show.

End of Flashback

I wanted to help her desperately, but there was nothing I could do to help. I didn't want her to get hurt trying to control her powers. She was going to have to figure this out herself.

Estefania's P.O.V.

A few weeks had passed but I was still haunted by what happened on that very peaceful day. The day I almost died of pain and fright. I had trouble controlling my powers with the terror haunting my mind and thoughts. I would have sudden outbursts (as I call them) and shoot ice unintentionally. My mama would come in and try to help, but I knew she was vulnerable to any attack. Sometimes, waves of pain and anguish would take over me and I would spend hours locked in my room just waiting for them to leave. I would never see Eli nor Andrea for risk of hurting either of the two. They would try to convince me to come out of my room, and I was tempted to, but I always refused and turned down the offer. My papa would also try to convince me to come out or to help me control my powers but would always fail. "Mama, I'm scared!" I cried to her. I was hurt inside and my powers were getting the best of me.

"It's fine. Calm down. Mama is here. Don't feel it and just think of happy thoughts," she would say soothingly. I closed my eyes and thought of happy times when I used to play and joke around with Eli and Andrea. But soon enough, those happy thoughts were swallowed up in darkness and turned into my scariest nightmares. As a way of self-defense, I accidentally shot ice around me. One going straight at my own mother. Not long after they had hit, I saw her staggering, trying to regain her balance. I gasped at the sight of seeing my own mother almost die right in front of me. I started crying on the spot just thinking about it. "I can't control it, mama," I said hoping that she would be well. I ran to her to check if she was okay. I wanted to hug her, but with what just happened I knew I couldn't. I didn't want my powers to go out of control again and accidentally hit her.

"I'm fine," she said to me trying to reassure me that she was okay. But I didn't buy it.

"You're not okay. I'm sorry, mama. This is all my fault," I said bursting into tears. These were rough times for me and I could do nothing to stop them. And everyday I would think to myself, why me?