Still Unexpected

Chapter Seventeen

Katrina's P.O.V

After I leave Fionn's, I head out on a walk to the shops. I didn't bring my car keys, unfortunately. Daisy mentioned she was thinking about going to the shops so I can only assume she went. Anyway, a walk will give me time to think.

I've got butterflies in my stomach still and every time I think about him kissing me it gets even worse. It's not a bad feeling though it's a really happy feeling, a feeling of nervousness and excitement and I've only felt this once before. I can't believe he kissed me though! Why am I so happy about it, I have PJ...but Fionn likes me! I knew it but I didn't and I can't think right at the minute. I want to see him again but he thinks he's done something wrong...I've done something wrong.

Me and PJ haven't broken up.

Yet.

I've never felt this way about kissing PJ. I don't feel the same around PJ.

Oh. No, no, no...

I can't be...I can't be in love with Fionn. No. Nope! Not possible.

But what if I am? I can't be...but I'm not in love with PJ. I know that, but that doesn't mean I have to be in love with anyone. And surely I would have known in the two years I've known Fionn?

I've made it to the shop we usually go in for odd bits and pieces but it's mostly empty. I stroll around the aisles but there's no sign of Daisy.

I'm about to go into the next aisle when I hear something...someone said PJ.

I strain my ears, and pick up a tin of baked beans - the first thing I could grab. I look at the tin intensely but really I'm eavesdropping.

 "But, PJ!" a woman's voice says.

 "Come on, please, I need you. I'm sure this girlfriend of yours understands..."

She pauses.

 "I can't look after him on my own...I know I don't deserve you, I treated you like crap. I wish I never left you. It's been years, I've missed you. I haven't had a boyfriend since."

Another pause.

"Of course, no one wants a girl recovering from depression with a child."

Oh, God, she had depression...

 "Can you go over to check on Peter? I left him with Lillian but she said she could only stay with him for half an hour. Okay, thank you, bye..."

So this must be Natasha. I slowly put the beans down. I hear walking a a woman comes around the corner. In one hand is a phone and the other a basket, she glances at me briefly with tired eyes. She is, I hate to admit, very pretty. She has long, glossy hair that looks as if it's a really deep shade of purple. I don't want to dwell on it so I take one final sweep of the store before heading out.

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I'm staring a Fionn's door, daring to knock on it. He's probably gone out now but I just want to tell him that it was okay for him to have kissed me. I don't want him to think he's done something bad.

I knock on it quickly and stand there for a minute. He doesn't open it, so I guess he's already gone. I head up the stairs and walk into the flat. Daisy obviously never went out as she's sat with Chris watching Dick and Dom, children's TV presenters and actors. She loves them.

I smile at the two and head to my room, I don't know if they want space or not.

I might call PJ. But then again...I know he's busy right now.