Butterfly [MIN YOONGI]

Chapter 11 - Fake It

As the remaining BTS reach the hospital,they were all shocked with two news.First,maknae ended up fainted and was being treated by the doctor and second,Min Yoongi was acting like nothing ever happen.He just smile and laugh,like usual,like the reason he ended up in hospital was fainted or something.

"Yoongi..are you sure you are really ok?" Namjoon ask as Jin tell him his concern that Yoongi is trying to hide it away from everyone again.

"Yeah..I'm sorry..for making everyone worried..I just..not in a stable mind when...I did it..But now I feel so much better..Thanks to you guys..." Yoongi said smiling.Suddenly Taehyung walk into the room getting all the attention.

"How was maknae?" Yoongi was the first one to ask.

"The doctor said maknae was hypotension (Low blood pressure) as he hadn't been eating and resting well the past days.Maknae also stressed himself too much.So the doctor put him on the IV drip and ask us to let him rest.Jiminie is taking care of maknae." Taehyung said.

"Guys..please take care of your health..don't worry about me.." Suddenly Yoongi said and somehow that sentence seems fishy for Jin.

"Hyung..." Suddenly Taehyung walk toward Yoongi and hold his hand in his's.

"Promise me,you won't did anything,no..don't even think about it.Promise?" Taehyung said as he look deep into Yoongi eyes catching him off guard.Everyone walk closer to him and surround him on the bed.Hoseok,slowly hold his left wrist and slide the sleeves up,letting the cold air hit his bare skin.

"This...is the last ok?Promise us?" Hoseok say as he look at Yoongi.Yoongi just afford to look down as he don't think he can handle saying he promise without tears falling from his eyes.

"We are here...talk to us..anytimes..." Namjoon said as he smile at the older.Even though Yoongi was older,Namjoon feel the responsible as he is the leader.

"Ye..Yes..I will...don't worry about it..." Yoongi said as he was trying hard to dry up the tears in his eyes before he lift up his head and smile to all the members.

"I'm so glad!Finally our saw Yoongi is back!" Hoseok said as he smile.

'I keep it all inside,because I rather the pain destroyed me,then all of you.' Yoongi said last as he smile,looking at all the members smile.

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After a few more days,Yoongi was getting better and better well,better at hiding it.

"So,Yoongi have been progressing quite well as he is under our care,I think it's safe enough to let him out now,but everyone need to pay extra care to him,there might be time when he might have the urge to do it again.So please,keep your guard up and take care of him well.Also,make sure he didn't starve himself and eat properly.We'll give anti-depressants pill for now and please give him when it's only needed.Also please don't give this at his hand and hope he will not abused it.This is just precaution so something like overdosing won't happy further.That's all.Please..he really need you guys to recover."

All of BTS walk out from the room in silent looking at each other as the door behind them shut close.The pills given was in Jin hand as he was the oldest.They all are just looking at each other.After few second,Namjoon break the silence.

"Now,I want everyone to understand,that,Yoongi might did something more worse in future if we didn't keep our eyes on him.We all need to do this together.Don't freak out,don't ever think that whatever Yoongi doing is fine,never left him alone,always keep your eyes to him.He need us,he need his family right at this moments,but he choose to stay with Bangtan as he think about our group future.Things might get harder soon,but please,don't give up on him." Namjoon said as he link his hand around Jin on his left and Jungkook on his right,as everyone get closer.

"Jungkook?Will you be fine staying with Yoongi?Or do you want to exchange room with hyung for a while?" Jin said as he worried about how the younger will cope with his hyung as he never really have the bravery against Yoongi especially when he become cold and scary.

"But,don't you think suddenly exchanging the room mate will make Yoongi feel hurt?It's sound like we are trying to distance maknae and him away." Hoseok said not disagree.

"I think that's the best for both of them.Jungkook had been stressing himself quite too much recently,I'm scared he will have it harder if he stay around with Yoongi.And maybe for now Yoongi need someone older to guide him." Namjoon said.Everyone look over to Jungkook,but the younger seems not in the conversation.

"Jungkook?" Jimin called as he slightly smack the younger shoulder gently dragging him back to reality.

"Ah?What..what?" Jungkook said panicking as he didn't have any idea with what everyone is talking about.

"Are you fine staying with Namjoon hyung for a while?We want to let Jin guided him for a while since we don't want to stress you up and make it harder for Yoongi too.You are fine right?" Taehyung said.Jungkook look at everyone face as he was in a deep thought.He don't want to stay away from Yoongi,hell he want to be the one who stay beside him after all this happen,but it seems like never gonna happen,as all his hyung didn't trust him enough to take care of Yoongi.

"I'm ok if it's for Yoongi hyung benefits." Jungkook said as he smile.Everyone was just smile and glad the younger agree but there is one person who is hiding behind a wall near them,hearing every bits of their conversation.

'Why..did everyone have to distance maknae away from me?They are scared I'm going to affect him with my..habits?They think I will let Jungkook did this..this ugly scars to himself?They think I'm not responsible enough to be let in one room with Jungkook,until Jin have to take care of me?I know..I know they are doing it for the sake of everyone,especially my recovery...but why does it's feel hurt so much in my chest?' Yoongi.

"It's hurt..because I never thought I'm that useless."

~TO BE CONTINUE~
💮Authornotes : "I don't know how to tell you without feeling needy.I don't know how to come out without being judge.I don't know how to cry,without my tears feel like acid.I just need you to see I'm hurting without me telling you.Because my words,bleeding out from my mouth,waiting for you to stitch me up and make me fine.Although I know that's not your job,and you're better off without me.I just need you to see me one last time." I love you guys!Keep giving support! 💮