Butterfly [MIN YOONGI]

Chapter 10 - Not You

Jungkook walk in back to the ICU after everyone went back home,leaving him who stubbornly want to stay.Jungkook just sit on the bed side as he look at Yoongi tired face as he was in a deep sleep.He bring his hand to his fluffy green hair,caressing them gently as they are sticking to Yoongi forehead.

'Hyung.........I'm sorry..' Jungkook said as he started to cry again.

Jungkook was few times,saw Yoongi getting treated coldly by the ARMY's but he just decide to not make it a big deal,as he thought Yoongi will just ignore it all,he is a strong guy indeed from Jungkook eyes.He never know,his ignorant,will lead to his hyung terrible decision.How stupid and cruel can everyone be,until Min Yoongi think killing himself was a better option then trying to seek help from anyone.

"Jung...Jungkook..." Jungkook open his eyes shocked as he heard Suga,no,Min Yoongi calling his name,but why does it sound so desperate.Jungkook look over to Yoongi that was crying as he look at Jungkook.

"Hyung..Yoongi hyung..." Jungkook call his name softly as he slowly hug the older that was crying.

"Hyung...everything gonna be ok...it's ok.." Jungkook said comforting the older as he caress his hair gently.

"Everything..everything is so...fucking hurt..." Yoongi said as he sob out loud not caring either he curses or he was showing his weak side to his maknae,the weak side he had been trying to hide away.

"Hyung..why didn't you say anything..why didn't you tell us?Tell me?Why..." Jungkook ask broken.

"I didn't wanna worry..and burden anyone...I thought it will be fine..its fine before..But I did it a little..too deep...I..I didn't..mean to..." Yoongi was starting to be out of breathe as he remember the memories.

"Hyung..hyung..Yoongi hyung..calm down..breathe slowly...it's ok..." Jungkook said as he try his best to calm the older down.

"You are not through this alone hyung...you are not..everyone is here,ARMY's are all worried even though we just said you fall in the bathroom hyung.Everyone was sending love and wish you will be alright hyung.Everyone loved you so much." Jungkook said stating the facts to kill Yoongi thoughts that he is not needed.Hell nah,everyone freaking needed him here.

"I'm..I'm so sorry.." Yoongi said as he bring his hand slowly to hug Jungkook tight.

"Yoongi hyung!" Taehyung call his name soft but loud enough as he run toward the older and hug him along with Jungkook.

"Hyung..do you know how much you worried all of us?" Taehyung said as he hide his face in the older chest.

"Jungkook just won't rest since the day you out of conscious.." Taehyung said,a sense of feeling worthless as he made others ignore their well being just because they are worried about him.How useless he can be?

As he was in a deep thought,Jungkook suddenly wake up and turned away as he coughing out sound dry as hell,bringing concern to Taehyung and Yoongi that now wake up in sitting posture even though his whole body hurts.

"Mak..maknae..are you ok?" Yoongi ask.

"It's ok hyung..I just..doesn't feel well..But I'm so glad you are...awake now..Hyung...please take care..I..I need..toilet..." Jungkook said as he try to walk toward the toilet inside the room but his body got taken away by the darkness as he reach his fifth steps and his body fall to the floor,keeping alert to Yoongi and Taehyung.

"Oh God..Jeon Jungkook!Maknae!" Taehyung shout as he run toward the younger panic.

"Maknae..is he ok?" Yoongi ask feeling useless as he can't walk off from the bed to help the younger.

"I'll take him to the emergency for a while." Taehyung said as he carried Jungkook up in bridal style,at the right time,Jimin walk in,caught off guard shocked with the hectic atmosphere in the room,he look at fainted Jungkook,now he worry too.Jungkook is like the most healthiest member in BTS and he freaking fainted.

"Jimin,please look over hyung for a while,I will send maknae to the emergency.I think he is just too tired." Taehyung said as he run out with Jungkook in his hand leaving Jimin and Yoongi alone in the room.

"Yoongi hyung..are you ok?" Jimin ask as he saw Yoongi was staring into the white wall blankly.Just then,he look at Jimin,giving him the most purest smile he can even did in his life.

"I'm fine..I'm sorry to worry everyone..I might hit my head with something that day.Hahahaha...silly me.." Yoongi said as he laugh it off.Jimin smile as he saw Yoongi smile is back.

'I need to stop burdening everyone with my pain.It's just hurting them,making them sick.I should just keep it all to myself.I'm sorry everyone.I don't want to be me anymore.I make everyone worried sick about me,having to delay all our schedule,worrying fans.What a piece of shit I am,everything I did was bringing mess to everyone.' is what Yoongi thought as he smile to Jimin.

'I will just fake a smile and pretend to recover as a reward since that what they want,the old Yoongi.' Yoongi thought blankly in his mind as he keep smiling.

~TO BE CONTINUE~
💮 Author notes : It's already DNA era and I'm still stuck with I Need U,War of Hormone and Spring day specially.God,I'm an idiot.But Yoongi smile when his part in DNA make me go crazy.Like he know everyone will be dead after saw that and that's why he did it.God,someday I will probably die out of heart attack because of them.But,even that happen,I love them all!!!I love you too aww don't be sad. 💮