Butterfly [MIN YOONGI]

Chapter 5 - What Are You Doing?

As everyone was getting ready behind the stage with the microphone,Jin can't help but keep his attention at Yoongi that keep refusing to make eye contact with anyone and keep looking down.He was thinking to go and ask him again but as the crew said one minute left,he decide to ask him after the performances.

'Please don't mess up.Please don't.Please just for this once.' Yoongi mentally noted himself as the view of the microphone scared him.Being an idol with anxiety,can anything be any worst for him?

"Give it up for BTS!!!" Yoongi was drag back to the reality as the stage start to lift everyone up and appear in front of the stage.Cheers can be heard clearly as ARMY gone crazy to the sight of BTS on stage.The performances start with Blood,Sweats and Tears.Everyone part,they receive a huge fan chant from the fans,but as Yoongi rap,only a slow fan chant can be heard.His confidence level are dropping at a dangerous state and he was start feeling scared to sing and his movement was starting to get slow as he breathe was getting faster and shorter.

'I..can do this..please...just few more minutes.' Yoongi said as his eyes are now playing trick like the world is shaking and spinning.

You are useless.

There is nothing you can do.

You are just a burden to the group.

You are ruining everything.

You are disappointing everyone.

Nobody need you here.

You are weak and pathetic.

Everyone will be happy if you just go die.

Die.

Die.

Die.

"I wanna die." Yoongi said last before the stage black out as well as his body black out and he fainted in Taehyung arms since he was the nearest to him.

"Oh crap!Yoongi hyung!Hyung!?" Taehyung try to wake him up but there is just no response.As everyone reach downstage back,they was really shocked to see Yoongi in Taehyung arms.

"What happen!?" Jin shout panic as everyone run toward their direction.

"Hyung just fall backward and luckily I manage to hold him before he hit the floor." Taehyung said as Namjoon,as the responsible leader pick him up in bridal style while one of the staff was fanning him thinking maybe he fainted because of the heat pressure.As they reach the dressing room,Namjoon put Yoongi to lay on the sofa slowly.

"Make sure his head was a bit higher and can you get me a bottle of water!" Jin said as he sit beside the fainted Yoongi as Jungkook and Hoseok massage his leg and hand.

"We are sorry but can everyone except for BTS members please give us some space for a while." Namjoon said politely asking all the crew to leave them alone as this is a private matter of their group discussion.After everyone left and make sure they locked the door,Namjoon walk back to the group and analyzed Yoongi condition.

"I told you Namjoon,I freaking told you." Jin said angry.As Jungkook was washing Yoongi face with the water,suddenly the older wake up,fluttering his eyes as his hand holding his throbbing head.As his eyes focus,he saw Jungkook worry face while he heard few voices talking.

"Hyung?Yoongi hyung can you hear me?" Jungkook as getting closer.

"Yoongi,Yoongi can you see us?" Jin ask patting Yoongi hand lightly.

"Wh...what happen..?" Yoongi ask as he wake in sit posture and his body suddenly limp down and fall in Jin arms.

"We need to get you to hospital Yoongi.You are sick." Jin said as Yoongi lay his painful head on his firm chest.

"Get..me home..please..." Everyone was shocked to hear Yoongi begging voice.He,never said in this soft tone after the day they got scolded by the management.

"Please...I..I wanna go home." Yoongi said as his hand was wondering around to hold Namjoon and he quickly give his arms for him to hold.Looking at Yoongi,feeling bad that he didn't even try to ask him if he was fine after Jin remind him Yoongi is not alright.Namjoon kneel on the floor and offer a back ride as Yoongi seems like he can't even walk.

"Come on,let's get you home." Namjoon said smiling as Yoongi wrap his arms around his neck and lay his head on his back while the other members follow up from behind protection Yoongi safety at all cost.

As they get in the van,Namjoon gently put Yoongi on the sit and Taehyung take off his jacket and wrap Yoongi as he look shivering.

"Hyung,can I...sit beside Yoongi hyung?" Jungkook ask suddenly but Namjoon just nodded understand how worried the younger as he was the closest to Yoongi.As he sit beside him,Jungkook help to move Yoongi head that was laying on the window to lay on his shoulder.

"Why are you pushing someone who intention just to love you hyungie.." Jungkook said as he saw how peaceful Yoongi face is.

Yoongi mouth something that shocked Jungkook.

"I don't..wanna you...to see me...broke.." Yoongi said as almost he thought he was just talking in his mind but in reality,Jungkook heard it,and hearing that type of sentence from Yoongi,kind of unbelievable,because he never ever let anyone saw how fragile he is inside.

~TO BE CONTINUE~

💮 Author notes : "You can't do this to me,all of the things you said are like a mask,it hides the truth and rips me apart,it pierces me,I'm going crazy,I hate this,take it all away,I hate you." I love you all angels! 💮