The True Lives Of The Fabulous Kill Joys

Chapter 46- Zip It.

I wake up sweaty and nervous, as you do when you have a nightmare. The room is cold and dull and I feel my hair stick up, on end. I need control, I need peace. I remember earlier, the pill calmed me down. I never knew Id be so desperate for something I thought I defeated.

I look at my shaking hands and pick up the small grey bottle. I need control. The bottle rattles and I take one. It tastes how my perfume smells. It calms me down and I watch as my hands slowly stop shaking. This could be the ultimate solution.

"Thank goodness you are up!" Thats probably Callum.

He sits on the edge of my bed and brushes his fingers over the cover.

"I never got your name?"

"J-j" the pill almost makes me spill my name. I take a deep breath. "J-jenny."

"Can I call you Jen?"

I shrug. Its not even my real name.

"Well, Jen, come with me."

I dont have time to reply as he grabs my hand, pulling me out the room and down the pale halls.

***

I have no concept of time has he injects me for the third time since I got up. Each time he asks me how I feel and I just reply, "fine."

"Third time is the charm!" He says, patting my shoulder.

My neck hurts from all the needles pricks.

I am somewhere unfamiliar yet interesting. Where I want to escape with Party Poison to. Its a city and everyone is normal and the BL era is all over. I try not to grin like a maniac as I look at the towering buildings and people ignoring me.

I open my mouth to speak but I cant. I try, but to no avail.

"Everything comes at a price."

I look around for the source of noise.

I try again, as hard as I can to sing or shout or anything.

"Everything comes at a price."

The voice comes from everywhere. Nobody else can hear it, though, its just me.

I remember what Callum said, third time is the charm.

"Na na na na na na na na na na na na na!" I sing.

As soon as the last na escapes my lips I feel something dragging my lips together, zipping them up. People from BL drop from the sky and start shooting people and taking them away. People are being zipped up into body bags and dracs are burning down the city. I caused this. I caused it. I-

"Everything comes at a price."

I wake up again.

"How are you feeling?"

Can he not tell from the sweat on my face, or the tears on my cheeks, or the shaking of my body?

I open my mouth to reply sarcastically but no sound comes out. If I speak BL will get me. The silence hurts my ears. He doesnt deserve my voice anyway. Ill save it for someone else. I try to just say "fine" but I just cant.

"Good. Now, you can go back to your room, Im going out for a bit, I need some fresh air."

I sit in my room and try and talk. Not even a gargling sound comes out.

I take a BL pill and rock back and forth. I can speak. I mean, I could if I wanted to... But if I do BL will come and get me. Ive been through that before... I can speak!

I try again but I cant even open my mouth wide enough...

My door opens violently, and I close my mouth backing into the corner with my hands up. A blush of colour explodes through the door and my eyes widen. I grab the bottle of BL pills and hide them in my pocket. Its Party Posion.

He grabs me in a hug and I hug back, mainly because I really need a hug.

"Get on my back." He shouts.

Its not a big deal as I jump on his back, clinging onto him. Let me out of here.

"Everyone on sight is dead. We need to go back, everyone is worried."

I would guess that they would be. I think of the Asian lady dying and Callum being shot. He wont get me anymore. I can speak now. I open my mouth and slowly become more frustrated.

We emerge from the tiny building and I sit shotgun, the bulge of the BL pills in my pocket.

"I missed you so much, I mean, everyone did. Im so glad this is almost over. We can go together and forget this ever happened."

I cant speak so I let him ramble about how many people died and how MK hacked the system and how dracs are a thing of that past.

"Hey, are you okay? What did they do?" He asks, realising that Im not really laughing at his jokes or replying.

I cant reply.

He pulls into the side of the road and turns to look at me. He puts a hand under my chin, making me look at him.

"What did they do? Are you okay?"

I open my mouth to speak but no sound comes out. Its embarrassing, honestly. I blush, opening and closing my mouth like a fish.

"Come on, its okay."

I try again, attempting to force a sound out of my mouth. Nothing. My nose crinkles and I try to scream but my throat ceases.

He searches my eyes and I try and tell him through my eyes. A frown appears on his lips.

"You can tell me when we get back." He mumbles.

As we drive back I cant help but let a sob escape my lips. The only sound I can release.

"Please dont cry." Party begs.

He sounds hurt so I look out the window, quickly slipping a pill into my mouth. That was for him... I could stop if I wanted to.

***

When I arrive back, people outside the diner applaud. My situation is embarrassing so I look down and try not to notice them. I climb out the car and Im engulfed in hug after hug.

"Just smile and pretend you are alright, then we can sort you out in peace." Party Poison whispers to me.

I turn around and grin at the croud, waving, before walking inside the diner.

"You look horrible?" Fun Ghoul observes.

I dont reply because I cant, but I do give him a pointed look.

Party sits me down on the sofa and I let him move my body parts for me.

"What did they do this time?" Jet Star asks.

This time I dont even try to speak, I know there is no point trying.

"Tell me something? Anything, at least!"

I send a look this way before opening my mouth again and trying to speak. Its impossible.

"Maybe its the lack of sleep, or the pills. She must be able to speak..." Kobra Kid starts.

I shake my head. I dont even want to look at them, its pathetic.

"Let the pill wear off and then we can try again."

"Give her paper, just for now." Jet says.

Party gives me my old notebook, with my drawings inside, and a purple pen.

"What did they do?" Everyone is surrounding me.

I take the pen and write:

-Fear simulations.

-BL pills.

They ask me to expand, I do.