Depression And My Life

I Want To Kill Myself

There isn't much that makes me want to stay.
Not many people care anymore.
I have a few friends and some family that make it hard to say
That there isn't much left that I am fighting for

No one believes that the thoughts I have are true
But the things that go on in my head make my brain rattle
My family only ever says "there's nothing wrong with you"
But they don't get to witness my never ending battle.

And it's hard, it's so hard to try to make someone understand

That I don't wanna be here
cuz I don't wanna be near
the things that make my life feel like a hell

And I know that I can't go
Or else everyone will know
I was to scared to find someone to tell

I lie awake at night and all I can do is think
About all the things I've done in the past and the friendships I have broken
But all I do is stare at the ceiling unable to do anything but blink
And I wish I would have decided that some of my thoughts should be spoken.

And it's hard, it's so hard to try to make someone understand

That I don't wanna be here
cuz I don't wanna be near
the things that make my life feel like a hell

And I know that I can't go
Or else everyone will know
I was to scared to find someone to tell

I'm giving up
There's nothing left
My god this sucks
I just wish someone could have guessed

Also this will be made into a song and I will be uploading it on soundcloud. When I do that I will put a link in this part and in my bio.