Dear Cody,
Today was ok
Until I got home
Me and Abby had a fight
It's about a guy
You didn't know him
I relapsed
Again
Fourth time this year
It was bad
I could feel my veins pushing against the swollen skin
The blood pumping through
It felt better
A lot better
But I won't end up like you
It wasn't that deep
But my wrists have thin skin
So it have had to be deep
There was always blood
Not enough to really hurt myself
But enough to remind me
My eyes are scratchy from crying
I didn't relapse just because of this one day
It was already about to break out
To unhide itself
My mom doesn't know
I won't tell her
I will get better
I don't know when
But I will
I promise Cody
I won't end up like you
Dead
Or Chloe
In the asylum
She was in a good mood today
That makes one of us anyway
I was too depressed all day
You knew all about that though
I'm so sorry
Today was the only day Ridge wasn't able to help me
I didn't tell him I relapsed
He would have hugged me
But I don't want attention hugs
Or sympathy hugs
I only told Chloe
That's it
Ridge asked me what was wrong
I told him stuff
Poor Ridge doesn't even know half of it
But let me tell you something Cody
Something kind of ironic
But true
Cutting isn't the answer
But I do it anyway...
