Dear Cody
I'm giving a speech about you for English
I thought about doing one for my sister
But then
I thought about you
We have to write about the biggest lesson we've learned this year
And tell it to the class
My biggest lesson
Was you
You know why?
Because you were the one who kept me alive
Because you died
I lived
I thought about ending it
Very many times
But when you died
I thought to myself
I don't want that feeling
To be in anyone
It hurt so bad
It still does
Just not as much
It's almost been four months
And I still don't know
How I'm supposed to feel about death
Because
You were the first person I knew
Really knew
Who died
I mean sure family has died
Very distant family
That I didn't know well
Sure it's sad
But I didn't know them
Like I knew you
My second lesson I learned
Was to not take friends for granted
Because fate isn't a straight line
It has forks in the road
And one of those roads
Could take your friend away
