Jessica
"You good " August asked standing up and walking next to me. To be honest I was okay but I was NOT about to let him know that. "I just want her to like me " I said acting as if I was about to cry. " I don't understand. She loves Sabrina yet she can't feel the same way about me " I said wiping my none existing tears. "Shh Jessica don't cry. She'll eventually come around she's just coming to terms with everything " he said rubbing my back. " You can't compare your relationship with my mama's to Sabrina's with her. She practically raised her." "I know but still I'm trying and I feel like she isn't. Especially Sabrina" " If it makes you feel better I'll talk to Sabrina ok ?" he said touching my knee. " It would. I just want us all to be a family. No drama just a happy family " I said lying so good I was starting to believe it. " ok I'm Finna go check on her and I'll talk to them both " "alright. Thank you August" "No problem" He got up and headed toward the direction Sabrina and Juanita went. I knew I was slowly pulling him away from her.
Sabrina
"Mama what are you talking about" I said confused. "You know what I mean. Your hair's fuller, skin's glowing, and you put on a few pounds. Baby you're pre-" Mama couldn't finish her sentence because it was interrupted by someone knocking at the door. "Ma, Sabrina, come on out we need to talk" his voice held so much dominance I had no choice but to obey. I stood from the floor and opened the door. "Yes" I said looking him straight in the eye. He looked a little uneasy. "We need to talk about how y'all have been treating Jessica. She's in there crying and y'all need to apologize. Y'all can't mistreat her she's pregnant, and with my baby and your stepchild so you need to come to terms with the fact that she's gonna be around and start respecting her. I mean it Sabrina." He said pointing in my face. I hated it when he talked to me like that. I felt so little, and for some reason I started crying. Mama pulled me to her holding my shoulders. "August what has gotten into you. You get that hoe pregnant and then you start mistreating the one who has been there for you since the very beginning. Look at you. You so concerned with little miss Jessica you haven't even noticed what Sabrina is going through. Come on Sabrina you're sleeping with me tonight " Mama said taking me upstairs brushing past August. When we got in the room I walked to Christian's little crib Mama set up in there. He looked so peaceful. It reminded me of just how chaotic things were. If anything I needed to figure whether I was pregnant or not and start figuring out what I was going to do. I'm physically tired of all this drama. I love August and I always will but I will not fight for a man who has chosen who he wants to be with. I'm not afraid to leave with my babies. Look at me already speaking the baby into existence. Mama came beside me and said, "I don't know what is getting into him. He's changing and forgetting who has been with him since before he was famous or anybody knew who August Alsina was. " She shook her head at her words "First thing tomorrow we're heading to the pharmacy and we're going to find out if you're pregnant or not. " "Mama what if I am ? That's too much for him to handle. He's going on tours, busy all the time, and on top of that Jessica's still pregnant. Maybe this isn't the right time for a baby. I don't want to add extra stress to him or me" "Girl hush. If it's too much to handle for him then you move on and you do what you have to do as a woman" "Mama I'm not ready for another baby. I just turned 21 , I'm not ready" " Who ever is baby , I know I wasn't ready for any of my kids" "Mama you had 5" I laughed at her "My point exactly they all came unplanned, I was never ready, but I knew all of them had a purpose. You'll make it baby, I promise you that " She picked up Christian but I took him from her.
"You've had him all day let me get him" He immediately put his head on my shoulder. I rubbed his back as a way to wake him up because if I didn't I'm sure he wouldn't be able to sleep through the night.
August
I'm confused. I swear I'm just trying to make everybody happy but it's like in order for one of them to be happy the other one can't be. I mean am I doing something wrong here ? I wondered as I walked upstairs to me and Sabrina's room but I'm sure I'll be sleeping alone tonight. I took a shower to clear my mind and got ready to go to sleep. I cut off the light and laid down but as soon as I did my bed shifted. "Sabrina" I said . She didn't respond. "Look I honestly don't know what to say to you I just want you to know I love you" I said as I kissed her lips. It was something different about them. They weren't as soft. I felt her body and noticed that it was bigger than normal. "JESSICA WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING IN HERE" "Baby calm down , I'm only doing what you want me to" she said leaning over and kissing my neck. "Jessica we can't do this, not here, not like this, it's wrong" "Who cares August I know what you feel for me and you know I never got over you. Just tonight I just want to stop hiding my feelings for you for one night" she said trailing her kisses down my neck. I slightly pushed her off of me and walked to the door. I locked it and climbed back on top of her. What the hell am I doing? She turned us around so I was now on my back. I preferred it this was, she can do whatever she wants.
(In the morning)
Sabrina
I woke up and got dressed to go to the pharmacy without Mama I wanted to do this alone. It only took me a few minutes to get there considering it was down the street . I picked up about ten test and a big jug of water. I rode back to the house and went into the bathroom. I took the first three in record timing and started to wait five minutes like the directions said. The first minute I walked around the bathroom. The second I thought about everything. The third I was thinking of ways to tell August if these test came back positive. By the fourth minute I was full on crying but when the fifth minute hit it subsided and I picked up all three and they all read positive. I stood there frozen, not moving a muscle. What the hell ! I knew it was a possibility but holding these sticks just proved everything. It was too overwhelming. I wrapped the sticks in toilet paper and put them in the trash and put the remainder in my purse. I opened the door and saw Jessica creeping out August room I'm assuming trying not to make any noise with the same clothes she had on yesterday. Again I stood there frozen, in less than 2 minutes I'd found out that I'm a new mommy and that August is cheating on me. Best trip ever !
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Sorry it's short. I had to write it on my phone but tell me what you think !
