Suicide Partners || m.y.g

1 | B E G I N

5th JUNE 2016

Shujin

The most awaited day in the entire year ; My Birthday ... Today I had finally turned 16 .. Back at school, my friends threw a mini surprise party for me .. it was nice because they bought me my favourite Red Velvet cake ... i received some presents and more wishes from them .. at that moment , i felt alive ... i felt loved by everyone .. everything felt just right ...

"shujin-ah! what did your family gave you for your birthday?" asked Hana , my best friend .. I shrugged , shoving my mouth with another spoonful of that red velvet cake.. "i haven't talk to them this morning .. maybe they will give me something when i get back home later" I said ..

honestly, i can't wait to get back home and meet mum , dad and sojin .. every year on my birthday , mum and dad will grant my wishes ... so i often told them i wanted to go on a vacation with them .. the best thing about birthdays are , opening the presents that you get from everyone ... i usually open my presents with my dearly sister.. we were so attached to each other till the point where we did everything together .. its fun , seriously .. i love my sister , i love my family more than anything ... my family is my everything ...

school ended after English class ends.. i bid my goodbyes with the teachers and my friends .. since my house is few blocks away from the school, i decided to walk back home .. i wonder what did my parents prepared for my birthday hmm .. my heart thumps loudly when my palm made contact with the doorknob ... breathing in , then exhaling before i twist the knob ...

" Mum, Dad , Sojin ! I'm home !"

i was expecting my family members to jump out of nowhere and scream or surprise me but all i get was an empty silence..

no balloons

no streamers

no cake

no banners

just a usual no party-decorated dark living room ...

"Mum? Dad? Sojin ? anybody home? come and great me with my cake ~ don't scare me like this" i started to shout .. soon , my feet brought me up towards my bedroom .. when i set my schoolbag on my bed, the bed beside mine had no one on it .. where did sojin went? the last option is only my parent's bedroom ..

honestly i don't feel good .. both of my heart and mind screamed 'DANGER' but i cant seem to process any of this at the moment .. i started to panic and then my feet started to run to their bedroom ..

"MUM! DAD! SOJIN! I SAID IM-KYAHHHHHHHH!!!"

once i swung the door to my parent's bedroom open , the first thing i smell is blood .. second, my tears started to well up when i saw my little poor sister ; Sojin laying on the cold floor with a sharp knife dug deep inside of her stomach area .. there was a pool of blood too..

while not far from her, there's dad leaning weakly on the nightstand grabbing two fist full of his hair and pulling it .. his wrists were injured ... then on the bed , there's my mum; unconscious .. there were no signs of injury on her but i can predict that she's paralyzed ...

i dropped on my knees as i watch my sister that's 2 years younger than me laying dead on the floor .. tears started to fall more and more , i sobbed and whimpered loudly .. what happened to my birthday? is this a nightmare? am i dreaming right now? please~ i just want this nightmare to stop haunting me ! to go away ! i grabbed my sister's face in my palms and cried out loud

"Sojin-ah~ w-wake up p-please? i-its my b-birthday~ you p-promised me that y-you wanted to o-open up m-my presents with m-me ~ w-wake up~ its n-not b-bedtime y-yet ~" i started to shake her body furiously , begging her to wake up .. begging that everything is just a silly and stupid nightmare of mine ...

i couldn't take all of it so i stood with wobbly legs, my trembling fingers fishing out my phone from the pocket of my school uniform's blazer .. fingers cold, pressing the keypad to dial a number...

i hardly could even speak .. my voice had turned hoarse and it cracked due to crying ..

" hello , what can i do for you?"

"h-help~ my f-family~"

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"We're truly sorry about your sister .. we hope you could calm down as our team investigate everything .. " said the officer to me.. i was wrapped in a blanket with a mug of warm hot chocolate in my palms .. i wasn't paying attention to what he just said .. all i can do was just stare at his shiny black leather shoes..

"since you're underage we need to send you to the orphanage as we settle out this case with your parents.. this place will be in our team's hand for this time being throughout the investigation ... it'll take some time but trust me kid, everything is going to be fine .."

bullshit

lies

"shall we make a move now? or do you need some time to pack your belongings upstairs? if yes then, take your time .. I'll be waiting inside the car ..." continued him, his palm patting my head ..

i don't want to leave

this IS my home

i sighed and ran upstairs to my room , basically throwing myself on the bed and cried silently .. and even if i cried out loud no one will come and comfort me .. no one will be there to wipe my tears and whisper sweet nothings to me .. I've been living here for the past 16 years and i can't believe that I'm leaving .. leaving in this horrible situation

as i packed my clothes , i came across a picture of me and sojin when we were slightly younger .. i was 6 and she was 4.. i smiled bitterly as my thumb ran through the picture.. everything changed in a blink of eye .. i only have the memories with me ... Sojin is now dead.. mum is paralyzed and dad is going crazy...

that is when i , myself shut my world .. i was once the happy girl but now ? I'm nothing but a freak .. I'm thinking about ending my life in many ways .. maybe dying could reunite me and sojin back just like the old days? she would be waiting for me already ... she'd be waiting ..

wait for me sojin ...

I'm coming for you...

+ how was it?+
rewriting this again and maybe changing the chapters a little bit