Suicide Partners || m.y.g

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packing my stuffs wasn't an easy task .. every single stuff that i owned for 16 years , brought me back to the memory lane .. most of them were filled with the memories of being together with sojin ... i wipe away my tears and collected myself .. I'm taking way much time to pack .. so after everything was done , i ran downstairs just to be stopped by my mum .. she had those tears too but i can't trust her yet .. maybe she's the one who killed my sister ; her own daughter ... maybe she's the reason why all of this bullshit happened ...

she was about to hug me when i avoid her embrace by walking away with my bags .. yes , i felt bad because she's my mum .. the woman who stays by my side through thick and thin .. but can she stay by my side now? i do admit , her hugs were the best .. comforting .. but i just can't ...

i shook my head as i looked for the officer earlier .. i just want him to take me away from here .. far away from the place that i used to call as my home.. he gave me a reassuring smile before helping me carry my bags and set it inside the car ..

when my bum made contact with the leather seat of the car , i heaved out a sigh ... it was supposed to be a perfect day ... its my birthday and i don't deserve this ... my gaze averted to the other police car next to us and dad was in there ... wait , why is he the only one in there? why is mum not with him? does this mean that he is the one who killed sojin? n-no it can't be!

i held my head and close my eyes shut ... breathe in , breathe out .. calm down shujin .. calm down .. i opened my eyes , and then the vehicle started to move slowly , calming my hectic self .. maybe i should ask the officer how's the investigation going on .. i have to at least  know something , so i collected all the courage in me and asked him ..

"did you get any information from the investigation?" those words were scripted in my mind .. i saw the officer sigh and shook his head as a no .. "no information yet but, we will ask your parents on what happened till your sister died ,at the police station later ... hang in there okay?" he explained calmly ..

i switched my phone on and went through my social medias just to kill time before i step into the orphanage for , i don't know ? forever? as expected , there are still people wishing me .. everyone except my family .. i came across Hana's newest post .. she posted a picture of us both hugging each other while laughing .. with the caption ' Birthday Girl #0506 .. Happy birthday to my closest friend , Lee Shujin ! May god bless you today , tomorrow and for the rest of your life .. thank you for your existence .. thank you for being happy and cheerful always .. i love you so so much .. xoxo Hana '

a tear left my eye as my eyes scanned every word .. hana is the only one that stayed by my side from the start until now.. and now i felt bad because i didn't get to say goodbye nor explain my situation to her .. I'm sorry Hana .. if only you knew .. that the old shujin won't be coming back .. things are too complicated and i have to take it all at once ..

i saw the officer glancing at me through the mirror .. i just ignored him and slump more in my seat, watching all the trees passed by me one by one .. funny how i changed just in a blink of eye..

We Care - Seoul House of Orphans

both me and the officer were greeted by the big sign in front of the big mansion which is supposed to be the house of orphans .. when i entered , an old lady greeted us with a warm smile .. she must've be the owner of this place .. she gave me this housewife vibe when i saw her with those baggy clothes  ..

"Welcome .. may I help you sir?" i looked at the officer then my gaze went to the kids who stopped playing at the playground and now eyeing me like I'm their next target... i shouldn't smile so i instead ,showcased my poker face .. this place is already giving me scary thoughts ..

"I need you to take care of shujin for a week ... I'll come here again to pick her up.." said him .. "but she still needs to register .. what happened , sir?" i scoffed silently.. ugh so annoying , busybody .. can't she just do her job properly ?

"her little sister was found dead .. the suspects were their parents .." i felt uncomfortable now .. this old lady will surely make a fuss .. i saw the kids eavesdropping their conversation and i also saw some girls glaring in my direction ..

"oh my god, did you heard him? her parents are murderers !"

" let's not get near her .. she might follow her parent's steps.."

"tsk tsk look at that bitchy face .. I'm obviously more prettier than her"

i frowned .. maybe my emotions are getting the best of me .. I'm too tired and maybe a little sensitive..

"shujin? let's go to your room .." said the officer , i nod my head and followed the lady's steps .. we stopped in front of a room and she gave me the keys which i took it gladly .. luckily I'm not sharing a room with anyone or else i might as well rot to death  .. i sat my stuffs on the floor then face the officer .. he held my shoulders and smiled..

"I'll see you at the end of this week , okay? everything will be okay ... you're strong .." i sucked in my tears and hugged him tightly .. he replied by stroking my hair gently .. "stop crying ... i have to go now .. don't do anything stupid here ... okay?"

" i p-promise"

before he turned away to leave me completely , he hugged me once more ..

"Happy birthday Lee Shujin "

soon i saw his figure disappear from my sight as i was left alone in my room ..

the day went by slowly and its killing me.. my eyes had turned red and sore , making my face look like a mess .. I've been torturing myself by crying the whole evening .. i promised myself that i wont shred another tear but i break that promise ... i can't , i think I'll die soon..

i was startled when i heard a knock on my door so i got up and get it , thinking it was the lady earlier but i guessed wrong ..

" let me remind you that you're not a VVIP here .. I rather eat a rat than calling you to eat your meals ugh"

even though i don't have the appetite to eat ,i still have to attend the dinner .. they were having some lame and tasteless pasta with plain tomato sauce .. usually for dinner , mum always cook roasted chicken with gravy .. and i miss those days so so much it hurts.. its okay shujin , 6 more days till you'll be out from here .. from this hell..

as i was about to take a bite just to put something in my empty stomach , a hand took my plate away from me .. without waiting , i barked towards the person .. "GIVE IT BACK TO ME!" the boy laughed at me and teased me more.. "Make me" .. i was controlled by anger .. i just grab whatever that's near to me and went for him ...

i hear screams in the background as i torture him over and over till i was pulled back .. the boy went limp and his breathing stopped .. i dropped the blood covered fork on the ground and shut my ears with my palms.. what have i done?

"SHE'S A MURDERER ! SHE KILLED BOBBY !"

I'M NOT A MURDERER

I'M NOT!

I DIDN'T DO IT!

HE IS NOT DEAD !

i curled myself into a ball as i heard all the curses the kids gave me ..

help me

save me...

+ correct me +
if there's any grammatical errors and such , !