Suicide Partners || m.y.g

3 | R A I N

I didn't kill him..

it was an accident ! i swear !

after everything happened , i was locked in my room ; I'm still in this hell

"Hey killer ! scared of getting out? come on, we wont bite ~" teased a girl .. i dug my nails deep in my knees .. if only i could -- NO you are not a murderer Lee Shujin ! i laid on my bed and force myself to fall into a deep sleep .. i tried ignoring their hateful words , even though its hard ...

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"I'm sorry upon Bobby's death .. I'm sorry for everything .. I'll bring her to a better place , I'm sorry once more ma'am ..." apologized the officer towards the lady ... her eyes were sore , probably because of crying .. i was in the car but i can still hear their conversation ... it's not like I'm eavesdropping or anything .. I just happen to have healthy ears..

i braced myself once the officer entered the vehicle and starting the engine of the car ... I'm so going to get it from him .. i promised that i'll behave but i broke it.. right now i don't care if he decided to dump me in jail or send me to the mental hospital ... i bet those places are more worse than the orphanage

soon, buildings passed by me .. or i could say that the car is finally moving ... it feels good to be out from hell .. it feels good to be away from toxic people .. screw everyone in that house .. what matters is that I'm free from those kids .. i was brought back to reality when the officer clears his throat ...

"you know that you're in a big trouble right ?" said him , voice stern ... i let out a weak sigh from my trembling lips .. " i know .. go on and lock me up ... i don't mind either if you want to kill me cause i deserve it anyways ..." i said .. now its his turn to sigh .. the officer too, and rubbed his face with his left palm ...

" i'm not that stupid to lock you up or kill you .. i know it was an accident .. now, let's go and get some breakfast ... we'll talk there .. i found some information regarding about your sister's death ..." i know by the hint of his voice , that he's tired or maybe disappointed .. i know why .. it is all because of me and my stupid useless brain .. i disappoint him ..

"I'm sorry .. i just .. i don't know what had gotten into me " i let my feelings overpowered myself .. that's why .. i admit that I'm too mad , sad and depressed yesterday ... who wouldn't ? but luckily my mood increases a little after leaving the orphanage .. and maybe because i'm getting free breakfast too??

he pulled over and we stopped in front of a cafe .. i ordered chicken sandwich with cheese and for my drink , just iced tea ... i dislike warm or hot water .. i'll only drink those during the cold weather .. me and sojin share the same habit .. but now , i'm the only one i guess ?

"Now tell me , what did bobby did to you ?" i sipped my tea and then looked at him .. out of nowhere , my palms started to sweat .. " he took away my food and he wont give it back to me .. he teased me so i just ..." i stopped and looked at my food .. hopefully he won't think that I'm making up stories .. " i understand ... but you should have controlled your emotions and not let it overpower your body and mind .." i hung my head low , ashamed of myself .. " i really have to do this .. I'm sorry but Lee Shujin you are now under control of the mental hospital.."

"i understand " i sighed .. and looked at him after ..

" but how about my parents , officer?"

its his turn to heave out a sigh now ..

"it's a long story ... "

Mr Lee , Mrs Lee and Sojin were busy preparing for Shujin's birthday party while she's still at school .. they bought a cake and kept it in the fridge .. after everything's done , they all went and waited for the birthday girl's arrival ..

Mr Lee was looking through some letters that she picked from the mailbox and she found one unpleasant letter .. it was both Mrs and Mr Lee's credit card bills .. the amount was so high , till Mrs Lee herself was speechless .. 'when did i ever spend this amount of money ?' she thought to herself  .. but then the thoughts of her husband spending the money behind her back pops up in her mind , and a sudden wave of anger builds up in her

as Mr Lee enters their shared bedroom , the bills were thrown towards his face .. how could he and Mrs Lee pay everything within a month ? it's impossible in this condition where they are not that wealthy ... he sets the knife to peel the apples on the nightstand and picked up the sheet .. he gulped in fear ..

"How long have you been hiding this away from me ?" started Mrs Lee .. he didn't respond .. she inhales and exhales ; trying to calm down .. again she asked , " why ? why did you hide this bills from me?" he sighs hard at the sight .. he doesn't want to fight and argue with his wife on this special day ..

"i had to .. i don't want you to get mad when you saw the numbers .. but apparently you did .." he said , she balled up her fists and snapped .. "you should tell me earlier ! I'm Your wife ! we're staying in the same roof !" out of nowhere sojin rushed in .. she was confused on whats happening between her parents ...

"calm down honey .. we can fix this .." he set his hands on her shoulder but she shove him away harshly " we? YOU BULLSHIT ! HOW ARE WE SUPPOSED TO PAY ALL OF THAT ?! YOU IDIOT BASTARD !" by now Mrs Lee starts to hit him .. Sojin hurriedly ran and tried to pry them apart .. 

"MUM ! DAD ! JUST KNOCK IT OFF ALREADY !"

he pushed his wife as she lands on the floor .. Sojin wanted to stop everything so she ran to her dad to calm him down .. sojin held his wrist and looked him straight in the eye .. 

" dad p-please stop it ~ PLEASE !"  Her pleading became more louder and louder but Mr Lee pushed his daughter away ..  when he reaches for the knife , sojin's eyes widen .. she ran and stood in front of him which caused Mr Lee to stab Sojin on the stomach .. she gasped and looked down at the spluttering blood from her stomach .. she soon collapsed on the ground , holding in the pain .. fighting to stay alive , knowing her big sister is coming home soon .. 

both Mr and Mrs Lee were shocked .. 

"Sojin ~ my baby ~~ s-sojin ~ " called Mrs Lee out , sojin coughed blood , Gasping for air ..  she soon , fell into a deep sleep .. 

where she will never ever

wake up 

again ...

my sight became hazy as i swallowed the big lump in my throat ... am i crying ? or is it just my imagination ?

i soon felt my cheeks wet from my tears .. quiet sobbing sounds slipped pass my lips .. everyone's eyes were on me .. and i know immediately from their stares that they were judging me ..

well guess what ?

i don't care anymore ..

the officer stood up and rubbed my shoulders as comfort .. i buried my face into his chest and cried more .. he leads me out of the cafe and brought me to his car .. i can't believe this crap .. dad KILLED sojin ! when she's trying to stop everything ! how could he do this to me ? how could he do this to our family ?? how could he do this to Sojin ?? 

my eyes gave up as i stared at the distance where dark clouds gather and droplets of rain fell onto the surface of the window .. 

the sky understands me more than anyone could ....

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