Life after Allegiant

1:Memories

Tobias pov
It has been 23 minutes since the doctor pronounced Tris dead. David killed her but he remembers nothing now. It feels like someone ripped out my heart and stomped on it. I don't , no I can't, live without Tris. She was my everything. I thought if I stopped my parents from destroying each other and Tris stopped David from erasing our cities memory we would live happily together. I just know I would have proposed to her. I loved her... And now I have nothing. She is gone forever.
Right now I am sitting by Tris' hospital bed the doctor gave me a few minutes to say my goodbye. My face is flushed. I've rarely cried in my life but I've never cried like this. I get up from my chair Next to her bed and walk out the door. I start walking down the hallways and walk pass the giant hole in the wall. Great Tris is gone and now I have to be reminded of what happened to Uriah. I promised Zeke I would keep him safe and I Even failed To do that.
After Cara told me what happened to Tris I wish I could just forget everything. That still could be possible though. I know I love Tris and I don't want to forget her but the pain inside me is killing me from the inside out. I decide this is what I will do. I start my way towards to security room that is holding the serums. The room where Tris risked her life the save the brother that betrayed her. Why couldn't it have been him but I knew Tris would have never let that happen. Now I am nearing the room.
I can sense a faint smell of blood. Then it hits me... That is not just anyone's blood it is her blood. I break down. My shoulder blades it the wall behind me and gradually slide down the wall. I see a bottle of serum about five feet from me labeled memory. I scoot over a few feet and reach for it. I screw the cap open and sniff the toxin. It smells like chlorine and vinegar. I start to raise the bottle to my mouth and set it down for a second think about all the times we shared before they all go away. Like the first time I saw her fall into that net without a scream but rather a laugh. Or the first time I Even thought about climbing a Ferris wheel was with her. Or the first time we kissed on the damp rocks below the chasm walls. These memories make me grin, but only a slight grin because I know they could never happen again. I shake these thought from my head and close my eyes.
Then start the raise the bottle to my mouth.