Reckless // Matthew Espinosa

Chapter 21

I didn't know what to do or say. I had been wanting this, but now it had happened. Well, I was scared. I don't think I'm ready anymore. A guy misbehaved with me and then the guy I like, likes me back. This is sounding like your typical story. But how can I just say yes? I went on a bad date yesterday. I needed time.

But maybe I shouldn't push it away. What if he looses his feelings by the time I'm ready for a boyfriend. Would he do that to me? He wouldn't, would he? But Matt always gets what he wants. He wanted me and if he couldn't have me, then what would happen? My thoughts were out of place.

"I-I." He was nervous to hear what I had to say. I was nervous. His cheeks flushed red. I kind of left him hanging for a few moments. "I-I." I basically repeated his words. Now that I was on the spot, I was scared. "I'm sorry, I can't do this." I said overwhelmed. I was afraid of dating. I was either going to rush into things when I am not ready, or I'm going to make things awkward. It don't want to be in this position. I rushed out of the room.

I could hear him follow me. "Zoe." He called behind me. "I am sorry. I rushed it. I just really like you and I didn't know what go into me. I just had to tell you and it happened. I know you just-" I hugged him tightly, silencing him.

"Look, I like you too. I'm just not ready quite yet. I don't want to rush into things and mess things up." I said, feeling really bad. "I'll wait then. I'll wait until you are ready." He spoke. Was he that serious about liking me?

"Thank you." I smiled. "Anything for you." He kissed my cheek.

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School was back. I was pretty nervous. I was hoping that the whole Keegan thing didn't spread around school. I don't think that he would spread it. I feel like, he was terrified of Matt even though he acted tough.

Matt came to my door. I kissed my mom goodbye and met him outside. "There is my princess, looking beautiful as usual." He said, as if we were dating. He was talking like this more often. Well only around me, not when we were around our group of friends. But I liked it, a lot.

"Matt." I elbowed him, giggling. My attention diverted to the convertible during by, slowly. It was the three most popular girls in school. Their "leader" Brit, had a massive crush on Matt. But ever since I moved here,Matt stopped falling for her little games. And as for Matt, he wasn't interested.

"Hey Matt! Want a ride." She winked. I rolled my eyes, slightly feeling jealous. But I knew Matt was better than that. "Sure." He smiled. My jaw dropped. What the hell?! "Zoe and I will sit in the back." He said, on purpose. I was now catching his little came. She glared at me. "Oh, sorry. I don't think we will have enough space for her." Brit said.

"Well that's too bad." Matt said, his actions surprising me. He wrapped his arm around my waist, showing Brit. "Zoe and I will walk." He finished, pulling me close to him by the waist. I had feelings of pure happiness.

Brit just drove off. She seemed embarrassed and jealous. Sad enough to say that she deserved all of it. She would have used Matt for popularity or just to play with his feelings. "I almost thought that you were going to go with them." I trailed off. "And leave you? I may be a douche sometimes, but I'm not like that. Plus she just wants me in her pants and I'm not like that. She's a slut."Matt ranted. I laughed at how worked up he was about it. "This is what I love about you." I smiled.

"That I called her a slut?" He said confused. "No idiot, because you are smart and do the right thing." I smiled. "When do you think that you'll be ready to date me?" He looked down. Was he that crazy about me? It was sweet. "I don't know Matt." I sighed. "Can we try Friday night?" He smiled a little. I paused, thinking. "When and where?" I questioned him.