Reckless // Matthew Espinosa

Chapter 19

Everyone had tons of fun. It was great just hangout with the 9 boys and Chelsea. I felt so carefree around them. I felt like they never judged me. To be honest, they are my favorite people.

We all crashed at Matt's place. I shared a room with Chelsea, Taylor, Hayes, and Matt. It was 3 am, and I couldn't sleep. I kept tossing and turning. I don't know why I couldn't. I was sweating like crazy. This was going to be tough. I sighed. I can't do this.

I got up quietly, and shut the door behind me carefully. I crept downstairs. Burnie was snoring. I opened the backyard door and sat outside. I placed myself at the ledge of the pool and dangled my feet in the water. It was silent out, but it felt good.

I heard the door open, after sitting here for a good five minutes. I didn't look back. I just kept moving my feet in the water. "Can't sleep?" Matt said, basically reading my mind. "Yeah." I said, quietly.

Matt sat beside me, gently placing his feet in the water. "Why can't you sleep?" He asked. "I-Um well, I'm not tired." I softly spoke. "Or is something in your mind?" He trailed off. "Its fine." I said. "Let's talk about it, I promise I won't get mad." He said, as if he knew what I was going to say.

"Um so you know Keegan?" I trailed off. "Y-yeah." He stuttered. "He asked me out." I swallowed the lump in my throat. "What did you say?" I looked down. "I need time to think." I said. "Oh." He said, with more hope in his voice. "Are you mad?" I splashed my very around. "Why would I be mad, silly?" He chuckled. "I-I don't know." I turned my head.

He turned his head towards me. "Look, if you want to date him go ahead. Go on one date and see if it works out." He smiled. What?! Why wasn't he jealous? Why wasn't he screaming at me? Why wasn't he upset? I was confused with his advice.

"Thanks." I smiled, and then rested my head on his shoulder. "What's there to thank me for?" He laugh a bit. "For being there for me." I said. "I'll always be there for you, no matter where you are." He placed his hand on mine. My stomach knotted. Stop Zoe. You like Keegan.

"Let's go back in." He said, pulling me up with him. "I'm tired." I yawned, practically dragging myself inside. I slowed down, standing there, falling asleep. "Zoe." He chuckled, snapping his fingers. "I-I." I managed to say before dozing off again.

I felt him scoop me up in his arms and carry me. I snuggled up into his chest, resting my hands there. I felt him walk up the stairs and go into the room with everyone. He put me down in my original spot and began to walk towards his spot, by Hayes.

"Matt." I mumbled. "Shh." He covered my mouth. Instead of saying anything else, I pulled him down, beside me. All I wanted to do was sleep in his arms. His strong arms. "Sleep." I mumbled.

He wasn't sure of what to do. I scooted, so my head was against his chest. I rested my arms on his chest as well, entangling our legs together. He wrapped his arms around me, keeping one on my back and the other on my waist. He kissed my head and whispered, "Goodnight."

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I woke up, with my eyes fluttering open. I felt better. I wasn't as tired. Everyone was gone. Well except for Matt? I looked at him. Light snores escaped his mouth. His arms were around me and our legs were tangled. He looked so cute.

I looked at the clock. It was 12:30. Shit. I didn't have anything to do today, so I just stayed in his arms. I scooted in closer, so our bodies had to space between them. He held me tighter. And with that, I fell asleep.