I fucked up. Yet again.
What can I say. It's my specialty: ruining things.
Everything was great and then BOOM. Suddenly, out of no where everything starts regressing. Farther back than where we started.
I don't need validation to know it's me. I'm always the problem. Toxic is what you call me. I hate myself. I don't deserve shit. Much less . . . him.
It's probably best he distances himself now. I'm nothing. A problem waiting to happen. So, good for him!
Is my happiness really too much to ask for? I don't understand how I give him so much power over me. The sad thing is, I was actually happy; smiles and laughter and hugs, and I even trusted enough to open up just a little bit. How could I not know that there wasn't going to be a catch.
Tease me with his playfulness; trust! And then shut me out. Ignore me. Block me. It hurts. But, I deserve it. Fuck it all!
I'm disappointed yet again. Why do I do this to myself? What did I do that was so incredibly bad I need to be punished like this?
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Forever Free
Storie breviThe shadows never fade, always lurking in the depths. Surrounding, closing in. Suffocating from the inside out. Releasing the voices cackling underneath. Trapped in utter darkness no light can penetrate. It's always eerily quiet. Constantly...
