“So what are you trying to tell me Kendra?” Lance asked. I went over to Lance’s hotel to talk to him this morning and explain that we had to end things but he was making it so difficult. “And can you please come sit down” he motioned to the bed. “Naw I’m good standing” I said. He laughed “So what exactly are you saying baby?” he asked again. “Lance don’t call me that” I said. “Sexy?” he asked with a small smirk and I rolled my eye.
“Look you’re the one that said you didn’t want me ending my relationship because of you” I reminded him. “Ok” he said. “And I love Chris” I said. “You love him?” he asked curiously “Yes” I said quietly. Lance stood up from the bed and walked towards me. “Kendra” he said lifting my chin “Lance please don’t make this harder for me” I could feel tears threatening to spill over. “Kendra” he said again softer this time. “Yes?” I answered looking into his eyes. “I don’t care if you love him, but I know you love me more” he said trying to kiss me. I turned my face “We’re not in middle school Lance, Yes I love you, we have history but you hurt me. I want to be happy Lance, I want to be in a relationship where I don’t have to hide it, I don’t want people to look at me and say ‘poor her, she’s with him.’ Let me try and be happy Lance.”
He looked a little hurt by my words, he stepped closer and closed the gap between us, my back was now pressed against the wall and Lance was so close. I could taste the sweet peppermint gum in his mouth, the cologne I bought for his birthday intoxicated me and made me want to melt into his strong arms. I needed to get out of here. “Look at me Kendra” he said his voice sounding as smooth as velvet. I glanced up slightly. “You want the happily ever after I get that. But Kendra that’s a fairytale. I know our relationship isn’t normal ok. Look we’re complicated, we fight, we make up, we’re just bad for each other. Kendra we’re toxic for each other. But we are real!” I sighed “Lance…” “No listen to me. I love you and I know no other guy will ever love you like I do and no other girl will love me like you do. You can’t just let something like that go baby.” “I love Chris too” I said. “I know you love him baby, but you’re in love with me” he said his face inches from my face “there’s a difference.”
“What am I suppose to do? I don’t want to hurt anyone” I said. He wiped a tear that escaped from my eye “don’t hurt yourself babe. Tell me to leave you alone and I’ll walk away, I’ll let you have your happy ever after.” “Lance can’t we be friends?” I asked. He laughed “Baby you’re my best friend you know that no matter what I’ll always be there for you. But I want you” he said grabbing my face and kissing me hard. “Lance” I moaned into his mouth. “Tell me to stop K and I will” he said softly. “I don’t want to be a cheater” I said. He pulled back, Kendra you’re mine and I’m yours. I don’t give a fuck if you’re married or if I’m married you’re mine. You hear me?” I stood there frozen. “Kendra you have a hold on me just like I have on you, I just can’t seem to walk away from you.”
I felt like I was going in a circle, I came here so sure of what I wanted. I knew exactly what I wanted to do when I woke up this morning. Now all I wanted to do was push Lance on the bed and rip his clothes off. God what the hell is wrong with me? I am so screwed up. “Kendra?” he snapped me out of my thoughts. “Yes?” “What were you just thinking about?” he asked. “Pushing you on the bed and ripping your clothes off” I said looking away from his eyes. He laughed out loud and grabbed my face “that’s my girl.” I sighed “Lance I can’t do this to Chris, I have to go.” He stepped in front of me “look at me in my eyes and tell me you want to leave and I’ll let you go.” “Lance please don’t” I pleaded. “I leave tomorrow to go back to school baby, if you leave now I don’t know when I’ll see you again.”
I forgot that Lance was leaving, I really didn’t want to leave. I love Chris but Lance and I have so much history and I just can’t seem to break free from him. He really did have a hold on me.
“Kendra say something” he said grabbing my arm. I sighed and reached up and placed a kiss on his cheek “I love you Lance but I have to go.” I turned to leave and he pulled my arm back causing me to crush into his chest. “Did you really think I was going to let you leave that easily. Do you not know me?” “Lance..” his mouth came crashing into mine and his tongue forced my mouth open. The sweet peppermint taste filled my mouth as our tongues met together. He started kissing my neck and I cocked my head back giving him better access. “Lance…” I mumbled as he pulled me to the bed. “he placed a finger on my lips “Shut up Kendra and just tell me you love me and tell me to make love to you.” I sighed deeply “Lance?” “Yes baby” he looked into my eyes. “I love you, make love to me.”
