Behind that Fictional Character (Completed)

Chapter 9

Life is filled with unanswered questions, but it is the courage to seek those answers that continues to give meaning to life.

Amaris' POV

There's too many questions running in my head.

Why did he blocked me? Why did he played with my feelings?

Totoo ba yung mga pinakita niyang pagpapahalaga noong una palang kaming nagkakilala?

Sila naba yung Chandra?

Damn. Why is this happening to me? Why can't I just be happy.

Is this too much to ask?

I just wanted to feel the feeling of being loved by others. I just don't know what it feels like to be loved or cared.

All my life I've been feeling lonely and sad because no one loves me, no one cared for me even my family. They didn't have the time to nurture me with their affection.

There's this empty space in my heart that I wan't to be filled. I thought Zild is the answer to my emptiness. But I was wrong he just made me feel like I am not really made to be loved.

Zild made me feel that care and love. Sa mga simpleng text, chat at tawag niya I feel really important. Pero temporary lang pala yun.

Just like what they said the only permanent thing in this world is CHANGE. Yeah. I changed a lot. I became someone I never thought I would be. I became a girl, okay babae naman talaga ako. What I mean is I started to dress up like a girl. Nag aayos na din ako.

Akala ko kasi pag okay na kaming dalawa may chance na magkita kami. And when that day comes I have to be pretty, I have to be presentable.

Lahat ng mga bagay na iniisip ko or iniimagine ko na mangyayari sa amin na parang sa stories or sa movies na may slow motion pag nagkita kaming dalawa o kaya naman ay may spark.

Damn. Nilamon na talaga ako ng fiction. I am not like this.

I need to know kung bakit niya ako binlocked, sinabi ko naman ng lalayo ako diba. Bakit ganon.

Akala ko ba babae lang ang magulo? Bakit naman pati lalaki. Tsk.

Mababaliw na ako.

Maimessage kaya yung mga kasamahan niyang OP? Damn. Kakapalan ko na ang mukha ko.

(Flashback 1)

Erebus: Pst. GGSS. Aalis na nga pala ako.

Zild: Huh? Baby shark bakit?😣

Erebus: Hindi ko na kasi gusto yung nararamdaman ko.😧

ZildGwapo: Anong nararamdaman baby shark? Care to tell me what is it?

Erebus: I don't want to fall for you. Lalayo na ako.

ZildGwapo: Then fall baby. I'll catch you I promise.

Erebus: Pero ayoko ng ganito. Sorry kung lagi na kita kinukulit.

(Flashback 2)

Erebus: Hey?

Erebus: Gwapo

ZildGwapo: Yeah?

Erebus: Nakukulitan kana ba sa akin?

ZildGwapo: Shrug