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"Hey, wait up!" He hollered easily making his way quickly down the stairs. I could never do that run down the stairs and not end up having any face plants or trips. "Why'd you leave?" Zane asked when he was by my side trying to make eye contact.
"Because this is not the way things should be, you're supposed to leave me alone and make new friends there are tons of candidates y'know?" I said looking at anything or anyone but him.
I was getting ready to leave when he tugged on my sleeve, "Actually it is, just stop trying to push away people that might want to care about you." He said with sincerity, and trust.
"I just don't like staying close to people because at some point they always leave." I said fiercely while fighting back tears, everyone at some point likes me then they lose interest or decide to go ahead and walk out of my life. Nowadays I don't trust anyone but me.
I didn't care if I left him speechless or he was about to say something, I just walked away in a quick speed. Hell I wanted to disappear, all Zane was doing was making everything more complicated for the both of us, if not causing drama. Why couldn't he just stick to the plan or deal whatever it was. He just had to pick this school! Had to be in my homeroom class! Had to sit next to me! Had to volunteer me to show him the school! Why me, exactly? I have no exact clue.
Before I knew it I was outside, on the quad, at the table I always sat at, alone. I was fine with the loneliness actually...That's a lie. What Zane said was true I do push people out of my life. This might sound really confusing but, part of me hates the fact that I'm lonely all the time and have no one to talk to and the other part is scared. Yes I admitted it I'm scared, I'm scared that thing that happened to me before, when people walked out on me will happen again and then escalade into a pattern. Fact about me, I see the glass half full than half empty.
If only I could I admit what I felt deep down to someone... Another fact, I keep things bottled in, and one day everything will come out and everything will go downhill for me. I could see it now... Let me guess what you're thinking, go to Zane, he has your back! No, I will not go to him, I need to learn how to stand on my own two feet...
My eyes then began to well up for no apparent reason, what is wrong with me? Breaking down at school, people surrounding me, but tough, strong girl exterior suddenly changing. I looked up and caught eyes with Zane, he was sitting with some jocks. Trying as hard as he could to pay attention to their conversation, as he looked at me, sadness washed over his face. It wasn't that I told you kind of looks, far from it actually. Just one of those, I tried types.
I brushed away my tears with my uniform, I wasn't wearing heavy make-up so you couldn't tell I was crying that much. Pulling out my science text book, I studied once again. Determined to pass the test with flying colours.
Suddenly I felt weight on the table, someone else on the other side. My only guess was Zane and of course I was right. "Aren't you going to eat?" He asked focused on me.
"Listen Trinity, I'm not trying to come off as a douche but just stop try hiding the fact that you have feelings, and need people in your life." He spoke without waiting for my response to his previous question.
If anyone else had said that, I would instantly think what a bitchy thing to say to someone you hardly know. It's funny people around me grew up with me and hardly know who I am and this guy I've known for at least forty-eight hours knows me better than anyone of them. How ironic?
I remained silent for a while, thinking of something to respond with. A good comeback, but all I came up with was, " I guess your right." then looking back down at the tattered text book.
"I bet this hard for you, trying to make new friends, allowing people to know who you really are. But please let me be the first who will give it their all. And if you don't like me by all means kick me where the sun don't shine and kick me to the curb, not literally. I know how your evil mind works." Zane said with a grin, his eyes suddenly happy.
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