Random Rants

I Just Looked Through This Entire Rant Book

Honestly, I was funnier than I thought I was

But I've changed a lot

First I was a bisexual girl

Next I was a pan/omnisexual genderfluid

Next a bipanomnisexual table

Now I'm a pansexual panromantic non binary

Times really do change

I'd like to thank everyone who's been by my side since the very beginning

I'd like to thank everyone who followed my queer ass

I'd also like to thank my parents for accepting who I am, but I'm still scared to tell you guys I'm non binary and pansexual

It's really hard, but I know you guys will accept me, considering the fact that you accepted that I had a boyfriend before you could even say "Do you even love him?" I'm sorry that I've been such a bad person and that I've been on my phone too much, but it's who I've become. I may not be like Mia, who's really cool and knows who she is, but you still have me, and I want you to be proud of that.

And no, I swear I don't have any other secrets that I've been hiding from you guys. Other than the fact that I'm emo as hell, but you guys already knew that.

Now, to all my followers, do you guys have actual lives? Why do you find me interesting? Why do you guys care? I'm literally a 12 year old who is still in the crisis of their own sexuality and gender identity. I've been questioning myself for a fucking year, maybe even more. I used to be straight. And speaking of that with my sister, she can say, "You know, when you were straight." And it'll be the funniest topic ever brought up in the conversation. Now I see.

And to Mia. Sweet, darling Mia. I love you so very much. You've been with me even before I had Wattpad, you've been here even before I was born. I can't say that I could have done better without you, because I couldn't have. You're my best friend, forever and ever. You helped me be the awkward, yet social bean I am today. You may not be social, or the stereotypical "beautiful" but you're the most talkative person in the house, it almost rivals me. And you're very beautiful, whether or not those chicken nuggets turn you gay. I couldn't care less if you were transgender, because you're still my sibling, no matter what. You helped me go through matters with not only my head, but with logic, and feelings. We don't always get along, but that's okay. It's perfectly normal. I could never go a day without seeing your face once. I get homesick without you. Being with the family is the one thing that keeps me going. I would be nothing without you. I love you, so so so so much.

And I would also like to thank the people who I consider my friends. I don't think I would be who I am today without you guys. It makes me want to cry that you guys helped me get this far.

And I'd also like to thank my boyfriend. You may not have Wattpad, but I'll love you forever. You help me learn that not everything is sunshine and rainbows, and we can't always be happy people. But you make me the happiest person alive. You always, or try to, help me with my problems, even if it's just the little stuff. And I'm glad you can open up to me about your feelings. It makes me feel like we're becoming closer and closer each day. I don't care if people make fun of you because of your hobbies, you're you and that's perfectly fine. They shouldn't make fun of you for being in chorus just because they didn't have to balls to do it in the first place. Everything about you makes me want to hug you forever. You make me a whole person.

That's about it. I guess you guys just bring out a separate side of me. It's funny, really. I get all sentimental and emotional, and you guys are just on the receiving end. I love you all. Don't stop being you. ❤👽

~Trissy