Random Rants

Um.... Sexuality? Genders? WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENING

Hello Universe!

So, as you all know, I qualify as omnisexual, because I love everyone and I care about what you want to identify as.

But recently, I'm not sure if I think of myself as just the female sex anymore.

I feel like I am both male and female. Maybe even non-binary.

I want to be known as something. Not a girl, but, bigender, or genderfluid.

I feel like just using she/her pronouns is just going to hurt what I am in the end, so I want everyone to start identifying me with him/he/her/she/them/they pronouns.

I've done quizzes, and they say I'm either bigender or genderfluid.

I'm also 30% pansexual, 20% heterosexual, 20% bisexual, 20% homosexual, and 10% asexual. Fun!

And this has been figured out over the course of a few days, but I'm still trying to figure out who I am.

I am pan/omni, (I will become that, because it works in the end) and I am bigender/genderfluid. I will be male on some days, female on other days, none on others, and both on some!

This is why I like my nickname. My name is multigendered so I can be female, male, and whatever other genders there are that I can possibly be!

I'm sorry I never told some of you guys this, and how I was going through this alone, but I promise I'll be no different.

I may lose some of you guys that have been supporting me, but just know that I love you guys, no matter what happens to change your mind about me.

Just know that, if you're not there for me, I'll still be there for you, no matter how much my drunk preteenage mind will/can take in.

There's always more people out there who support me even if I'm just coming out.

I'm sorry to all my followers who are just getting this and thinking,

"What the actual fuck is Tris doing-WAIT WHAT GENDER SWITCH?! BUT YOU JUST HAD A SEXUALITY SWITCH. WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU?!"

Nothing is wrong. I am simply too big for my body. I am more than one gender.

Can't human beings just be accepted that way?

Can't we all just be sunshine and rainbows til one of us dies of thirst and someone chokes on a rainbow?

This is already complicated as it is. I may be more of a girl than I am of anything else, but I am still genderfluid.

Love me for me.

Forget all that bullshit inside that says being like me isn't okay. Shoot that thing in the GODDAMN face. Embrace your inner sexuality and gender, and make everyone face it, because you're awesome!

Don't be an asshole in life, and love who you are. Because I love you, and so does everyone else. Even that asshole Steve. (FUCK YOU STEVE! [I don't know who Steve is, lmao])

I'm glad that I came out to you, and it's going to be hard telling my mother. Even though she accepted my sexuality full on, it's just SO HARD to tell someone you feel like someone else. I hate it, but I'll get through it.

I've already told Mia_Tried, HannaMorales1, and 994468sn29, so you'd think it isn't hard.

WRONG.

Telling someone you love, and then hoping they won't look at you differently is probably the worst anxiety driven thought ever.

Update: I got advice. Hadley, mah homie, you are the best. Thanks SO MUCH. I KNOW WHAT I NEED TO DO. I'M OKAYYY

Ish. I'm okay-ish. Don't know how imma tell mu parents now