I've been kinda depressed lately.
Dunno why.
I don't really like it.
I'm trying really hard to not be a depressed boi because literally no one needs to know. All of my friends are more depressed than I am anyway, might as well help them to help cope with my own I guess haha.
I know, I'm really insecure as well. Sure, people see me for the really skinny, pretty person I am, but I look at myself as less than average and bigger than I actually am. I know I weigh 3 pounds less than this kid named (uh fake name) Harry. But then again, I weigh 45 less pounds than this really popular, adorable, and also assholish guy named (uH FAKE NAME) Gavin.
I think I have a crush on cute, adorable, popular, asshole, kinda bad at simple math, Gavin. His eyes are kinda pretty, and his hair is kinda like curly noodles, not like ramen, but like curly noodles. I'd be way too insecure to say who the guy is to my friends because they kinda don't like him, but he's really cool and confused a lot, and ohmygod so funny when he doesn't understand something.
I'm getting ready off topic. Okay, no more butterfly stomach, more depresso.
So like,,, it might be because I'm staying late or I'm really lonely n stuff but it has just kicked in at its best today. I want to be able to love someone wITHOUT FEELING LIKE I WANT TO GET SHOT IN THE STOMACH FOR IT. The guy was a dick to one of my friends before and I totally get it, we're kinda vulnerable people and can't do some shit as well as other people can, but I don't want to be made fun of by him (I never have) and he's so tall and intimidating I want to get on my tiptoes and say something like "You don't intimidate me, I'm t-tall like you." I'd totally stutter in the middle who am I kidding.
My friends was recently talking about her crush on this guy, and I kinda thought "I don't really have a crush- wAIT N O" and honestly it makes me want to not get up today.
Anyway, I was also thinking about changing my username. I'm losing my brand, might as well get new suggestions so I can be real original in my branding.
I want your guys' help.
~Tris ❤
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