jebemonster:sorry po natagalan,,, sa mga naghihintay eto na po sensia na.. sabog ako! ahahaha konti nalang to kasi part 2...
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CHAPTER 40 part 2
Genesis’ POV
“Don’t you love me yet?”-I should’ve not asked that question yet, alam ko naman kasi ang sagot.
“G-Gen, why are suddenly asking me that now?”-see? tinatanong ko siya, pero tanong din ang sagot.
“Are you still gonna make it Janica? Will you get there?”-sa bawat bigkas ng mga tanong ko, para ko narin sinasaksak ang sarili ko. that was so stupid of me to still ask questions with obvious answers...
“Gen naman, please, d-don’t pressure me, I’m getting there. I’m really getting there, just give me some more time please, please Genesis, please sweetie?”-then Janica hugged me tighter. I know I should be so happy now with what she said, she’s getting there; she’s near to loving me? Is that really it? Bakit pakiramdam ko parin nasasabi niya yun dahil naaawa siya sakin...
“Your 18th birthday is getting nearer sweetie”-sinasabi ko yun habang hinahaplos ko yung ulo niya, habang yung mukha niya nakasiksik sa dibdib ko. Ang higpit ng yakap niya sakin, sobrang magkalapit ng katawan namin, kung titignan siguro kami, ang ganda naming kunan ng litrato...just a perfect moment... pero bakit ba ako ganito? I still feel like her hugs are not tight enough for me to feel secured that she’ll not let go of my heart... we’re not even an inch away but still I feel that she’s too far from me, I still can’t reach her.
“Oo malapit na, I’m so soon to be yours”-ang sarap na sanang pakinggan, kung hindi ko lang ang katotohanan...
“you’re soon to be mine sweetie? Are you sure that you’ll be mine...alone?”-naramdaman kong lumuwag yung pagkakayakap niya sakin, gumalaw din yung ulo niya saka niya ako tinignan.
“Don’t you trust me Genesis? Don’t you believe me that I can make it?”-parang naiinis narin siya sakin sa pagkakatanong niya... para din naman kasi akong nang-iinis eh, pero hindi ko maiwasang magtanong ng mga ganun...
“I trust you Janica, but it’s your heart that I don’t”-naging honest lang ako sa nararamdaman ko at parang hindi siya nakasagot sa sinabi ko. Then I can see that her eyes are starting to water. Damn, this is one thing I hate about conversation like this... nasasaktan akong makita siyang umiiyak... nakakainis tong babae na to, lahat nalang ng gagawin niya, sinasaktan ako... sigh
