Me Before You(Camren)

Chapter 14

Later that day Dinah came to visit but I wasn’t able to talk under the certain circumstances. You could see sadness in her eyes the pain behind them was all for me and I felt as if I didn’t deserve I hated it when people felt bad for me I hated being the center of attention because I was never given that as a kid. Even if I was at one point of time I couldn’t even remember if I wanted to. I felt as if it wasn’t anyone else’s fault but mine. Maybe my mom was a bad mom to me but I watched how she treated Sofi she loved her with every bone in her body and so did my dad. I was a lost soul back then I caused problems that didn’t need to be caused. I was always an outcast but meeting Dinah changed all of that. Dinah was the kind of person that anyone who knew her was great full to she was a great friend and as I can see a great lover because she’s still with Normani after all this time. I longed for me and Lauren to have that but I made that stupid decision to leave the day I did.

Flash Back

‘Camz why are you acting so funny did I do something please tell me” Lauren said sadly.  I hated lying to her but I knew if I told her the truth it would break her and she won’t be able to live her life the way she longed to.

“Nothing Lo just not feeling that great today” I said the lie slipped so easily between my lips that I couldn’t even stop nor did I bother to.

“Camz we can go home if you’re not feeling up to this we can leave right now it doesn’t matter” she said I just looked at her in shock because I didn’t actually expect that.

“Geez Lauren no its our anniversary I’m not going to make you drive me home for a stop ache I love you though thanks for the thought” I said leaning in pecking her on the lips.

“Okay Camz I just want you to be comfortable and have a good time and I love you too. Lauren said wrapping her arm around my waist.

“There’s nothing more comfortable then being in your arms right now watching this beautiful water fall I never thought this what we would be doing today and I love it but not as much as you.  I said looking into her eyes.

‘Camz I just want the best for you and thank you for giving me a chance to prove to you that lov… I cut her off.

‘Hey Lauren can you promise me something? I asked and she nodded signaling for me to continue. “Promise if something were to happen between us that you won’t ever forget me like if something bad or something comes between us you’ll never forget what we had. I said looking at her I could feel one single tear roll down my cheek before the pad of her thumb.

“Camz I promise you that I’ll never forget what we had ever you’re my life Camz and I couldn’t forget you if I tried but where did this come from? I knew she was going to ask but still I did not tell her the truth.

“I just wanted you to promise me that nothing happened but I just want to make sure I know you will in case it does. I said gently laying the palm of my hand on her cheek kissing her with every bit of love I had. This was the day I was leaving the love of my life and it sucked and was bullshit that life wasn’t in my favor.

Later on that night after the heart to heart with Lauren she drove me home walking me to the door step and saying good bye not leaving before giving me a longing kiss whispering I promise after she pulled away. She smiled at me so genuinely that I could’ve changed my mind and just stayed and told her everything but that wasn’t an option I had to go I had to get away from her before it got worse.

After she left I hurried upstairs to the apartment I was staying in with a buddy of mine. I grabbed my small bag and the stash of money I was saving from the little dinner job I had as a waitress. Tips were great because most of it came from horn dogs of older men that would cat call to me about every time they came in but it was my job and I made enough money.

I made my way out of the apartment not before leaving a note for everyone I loved that I left behind. I was full on sobbing after I entered the bus leaving the state to god knows where and that’s how it had been for the past couple years until my sickness got to bad and I passed out and was brought here back to Lauren.

End of Flash Back

“Hey Camz I brought you a little something to lighten the mood since you had a long day. She sat a small stuffed animal by me and pushed it button on its hand and her voive started to feel the room.

‘Hey Camila if your hearing this you just got out of surgery today I wanted to let you know I never forgot about you I always kept your promise we made that day on our anniversary. I wanted to let you know our friends are here waiting for you to come back we love you Mi Amor I know everything is shit right now but here’s a little something to cheer you up”.

“You are my sunshine, my only sunshine

You make me happy when skies are gray

You'll never know dear, how much I love you

Please don't take my sunshine away” this was the song she played on your 5 month anniversary the day my dad and mom skipped town and completely left me behind I was so distraught and she cheered me up so quickly with her raspy voice and from that day I knew she was the one for me.

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So here's chapter 14 enjoy double publishing today since I left you in the dark so long hope you enjoy with all my love
~Anansa