Serendipity KTH

Chapter 11 - Comparison*

I decided to not attend an online college and wait for me to deliver the baby before attending.

It was a baby boy and we named him Jihun. I chose the Hani and Jae to be the godparents.

The tuition fee for uni is just too high. I know my mom could pay it but I still feel guilty because she's supporting Jihun's expenses as well. My father visits us every now and then. We go for dinner once in a while. I never knew him and my mom was in good terms.

Jae and I started dating. He didn't leave my side and there's only a few times I could say no.

I decided to look for an intern job so I could pay for my daily expenses at least. I saw a job posting at an entertainment company.

There were hesitant to hire me because I'm single but decided to anyway because they badly need staff and I have a child.

A car stopped in front of the building after the interview. I went in and gave Jae a kiss.

"How was it?" He said.

"They hired me." I said and did a dance.

Jae smirked. He never liked me being goofy.

"I wish you wouldn't do that." He said as he started to drive.

"What dance?" I asked.

"No. Take an internship. If you need money you have your mom and dad for that. You also have me." He said as he squeezed my hand.

"You know that I don't want that to happen. I couldn't take it." I said.

"I know, I just don't understand why." He said.

I didn't answer. He stopped.

"Come here." He said as his hand held my nape.

Jae brushed his lips against mine and sucked it gently. He kissed me on the cheeks.

"I'm sorry. I support you with your decision but I don't wanna see you get tired when you started working. Where do you want to eat?" He asked.

He's always like this. He treats me like a glass figurine that if he made a wrong move I will shatter into pieces. He never argues. He always cave in. I know he hated the fact that I'll be working but he never argued. Just always this, saying that he doesn't understand me but he supports me.

"We could eat at home, my parents are out with Jihun so ..." I begin to say. I saw the sparkle in his eyes.

"We could stay at my apartment then?" He said.

"Yeah, they won't be home until tomorrow night." I said.

Jae and I never did it before. We usually just kiss and that's it. He doesn't want doing it in our house because it's disrespectful. I never got the chance to stay at his apartment because of Jihun.

Jae cooked some noodles and we ate. I could see he was nervous.

He sat accross the sofa, my feet on his lap as I change the channel. He was massaging my feet. Nothing. I know what he wants to do it but the problem is he's always scared.

I change direction and rest my head on his lap. He brushed some hair away from my face. Carefully placing his hands away from my breast.

Still nothing. Maybe I'm wrong, maybe he really doesn't want to do it.

I sat down beside him and rest my head on his shoulder.

"Nothings good on TV." I said. "Should we sleep?" I looked at Jae and suddenly panic enveloped his face. I turned off the TV.

I peck his lips. "Good night. Can I borrow your tshirt —" finally he kissed me.

It was urgent. Like he bottled up all his emotions and it's now all being released.

He grabbed my breast and massage it as his tongue reaches inside my mouth.

He carried me to his room. I felt the bed on my back. He looked at me again like he is asking if it's okay. I kissed him instead.

He kissed my neck and I moaned. He started removing my clothes. He unclasp my bra and devoured my breast.

When he removed my pants and panty. He traced my slit and it was still dry. I wasn't turned on. I'm trying but I'm having a hard time.

He opened my legs and plant kisses on my thighs. He teased my clit.

He ran his teeth over my clit and then slid his two long fingers inside me. He pumped me and I started to reach my climax.

"Jae... faster..." I said. He oblige and I screamed at my release.

Jae position himself over me. I was still tight below, I had caesarean section and the almost three years hiatus from sex made me much tighter.

He slowly entered me. It was still painful at first. He didn't move. I could see he was concentrating.

When he started to move, I lift my legs to his waist to give him more access.

"I'm sorry." He said grunting. I felt his fluids spurting inside me. I wasn't able to even came near to cumming.

"Y/N... " he said looking at me disappointed.

"I came when you went down on me so it's okay." I kissed him.

"I didn't wore a condom." He said.

"I started on pills when we dated." I said. I don't want to repeat the same mistake again.

Jae somewhat looked disappointed. Was he planning to not wear a condom in the hopes of impregnating me?

He stood up. He took one of his tshirt and gave it for me to wear.

I decided to wash first. When I came back, Jae was already snoring.

I can't help to compare my experience with Taehyung. We would stay awake talking until we fell asleep in each others arms.

We usually do it twice. It was mind blowing.

But Tae isn't here. Jae is.

Jae helped me. Jae was there for me.

I wanted to fool myself but I know deep inside. I keep wishing that somehow our roads may cross again and meet each other.

What I didn't know at that time was it was closer that I anticipate it to be.