Sanders Sides One Shots

You promised - Royality

Patton is sad, well, maybe more than that. Roman doesn't know why but he sure as hell isn't going to let Patton fall into this pit of despair again, especially not by drinking, he just loves him too much to let him do that. For the prompts "It's six o'clock in the morning, you're not having vodka" and "you're so fucking hot when you're mad"  

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Roman awakes in a cold sweat, his breathing heavy, he knows it was a nightmare but the specifics are fading fast. He's thankful that he can't remember much of the dream, yet, he can't get back to sleep. He checks the clock on his bedside table - it's almost six in the morning so he decides there's no point in just lying here when he could get up, have breakfast, and start making progress with whatever he has to do today.

He slips out of bed, not bothering to change out of his pyjamas just yet, and makes his way to the kitchen. He expects no one to be up yet so is shocked at seeing Patton sitting at the kitchen table, a bottle of opened vodka sat out in front of him, his glass is empty but the bottle is still full though. "It's six o'clock in the morning, you're not having vodka," Roman tells him, putting the cap back on the bottle and the bottle back in the cupboard, Patton doesn't move.

"Patton?" Roman asks, sitting himself down next to the other, concerned when Patton still doesn't speak and continues looking straight ahead. "You don't get to tell me what I can and can't do," Patton speaks quietly but harshly, finally looking over at Roman, and Roman can see such hurt and anger in his eyes that it frightens him. "Patton, what are you on about?" Roman asks cautiously, almost fearing the answer.

"You can't tell me what to do!" Patton's voice raises in volume, his anger finally rising above the surface, "you all promised me, you promised me you'd be there! You would be there for me, no matter what, a-and I'm so mad, you broke that promise! I-I can't help all of this- this what I'm feeling but I'm a burden. Still! You promised!" Roman sat there in shock as Patton ranted at him and his voice broke several times, guilt hit him hard.

He had promised he'd be there for Patton, help him through the tough times but he hadn't. "Patton..." Roman started, his arm reaching out intending to comfort Patton but the other flinches. "Don't." He sounded so broken, so exhausted. And it makes Roman want to cry. "Please, I'm sorry. Let me fix this," Roman whispers, eventually reaching out and grabbing Patton's hand.

And Patton crumbles. The anger and frustration leaving him as he starts crying, his shoulders shaking as he sobs as quiet as he can. Roman stands and pulls Patton up with him, drawing him into a hug, he can feel Patton shivering against him. "You can't fix this, I'm broken, Roman." No, no, no. "Patton, you are not broken, you're allowed to feel like this. Please, I want to help you because I love you." There he said it. And he meant it.

"Really?" Patton pulls back slightly, his arms still wrapped around Roman, and he looks at him, analysing the other's expression. Roman nods his head and Patton's beaming again, smiling genuinely despite the tear tracks on his face and his red eyes. "I love you too," Patton confesses somewhat shyly and he kisses Roman's cheek, leaving the other blushing. They move to the sofa, cuddling up together and switch on a random channel on the television. Patton ducks his head into the crook of Roman's neck and snuggles closer, he's content right now, not really happy but it's a start.

"By the way," Roman starts, a small smirk on his face that he knows Patton can't see, "you're so fucking hot when you're mad." Patton laughs against his skin, Roman can feel his smile against his skin, then Patton kisses his neck gently. "Language, Ro!" Patton gasps in mock exasperation at the other, Roman whispers a quick apology before kissing Patton's forehead and just lets them calm.

They stay there for longer than intended, the TV is just background noise as Roman holds Patton against him and Patton snuggles into his side. That's how Logan and Virgil find him, they don't say anything about how they're cuddled up together or the tear tracks on Patton's face. Soon enough they're all sitting around the kitchen table having breakfast, almost as if everything is back to normal; Roman won't let it be completely back to normal, he's going to take more care of Patton from now on.