Feel Good (Laurmani)

{16: Forgiving is Easier than Forgetting}

Normani's pov

"Baby get up! It's time for school."

I shot up and realized I was in my bed, so wait: the abduction was a dream? Man, I've gotta slow down on the coffee.

Anyways, I get up and shower and get ready.

Normani outfit

I then went downstairs and my girlfriend handed me a bowl of oatmeal. I thanked her with a kiss and we sat down at the table.

"You'll never guess what I dreamt about," I eagerly but also angrily told my significant other.

"What?" "Um, before I tell you, what did we do after the incident at lunch yesterday?"

"We came in the house and showered and stuff as usual and you went to sleep early as hell, so I stayed up and watched tv until my eyes got tired. Okay now tell me!"

"Oh, okay. But, I dreamt that Star had been took you. Well it started when I came out the bathroom and I asked you did you want pizza I think? But yeah and then I came back and you were gone and it was a note from Star. So I was about to put on some fighting clothes and you woke me up."

"Oh, shit, that's not something you I want you to be dreaming about babe. I've been thinking and I want to share a room instead of sleeping in separate room, huh?"

I'm actually glad that she suggested that. I would enjoy her being in my arms, and we're kinda far into our relationship now, so why not?

  "How 'bout it? Let's do it, but we can do it later cause we have 10 minutes until we're considered late."

We then drove to school.

Third period>> Lauren's pov

We just came from lunch and I'm feeling good. There's this test that luckily I studied for, so I know I'm gonna get at least an A-. I just hope nothing fucks it up. I haven't been feeling happy lately, I need to start.

"Alright guys, you have this class period to do this test, take it seriously. If you need longer than this class period to do 20 easy questions then sadly you are slow. You may begin once you get it."

I chuckled, "this teacher doesn't bite her tongue, she's way better then Mr. Reed." I mumbled to myself and I got a pencil out my purse. I got a good look on her and- oh my god?! This can't be happening, my teacher is my mother.

I turned to Normani who was sitting in the back due to prioritized seats, I decided to text her, my mother was too busy into her computer so I just took my out and started texting.

(Lauren: name for Normani) Babes💖💋!:11:48am-Notice different about the new teacher?

( Normani: name for Lauren) Mylilbabyy😏 💖!: 11:50am-nah, not rlly

Mylilbabyy😏 💖!: 11:50am- is that your mother?

Babes💖💋!: 11:50am- bingo🙄

She takes a while to answer so I do 10 questions. Normani then sighs loudly and gets my attention. "You need to talk to her." She whispered, "Oh and my phone died."

I chuckled then I shook my head at her first statement . She smirks then goes to the bathroom. I then turn around and finish my test and turn it in.

"Thanks, Ms. Jauregui. I would like to see you after class too."

I scoffed, "I think not, Miss." I said. Then the bell rung I went to get my thing and Clara got a grip on my wrist. "I got your stuff babe," Normani said as she grabbed my stuff and went to the next class.

"You should let me go," I paused as I got out of her grip, "is you know better."

"Lauren you were right, he raped your stepsister, the one Ally takes care of. She wanted to visit him and I went to buy Wendy's when it happened. She was bleeding and your father was knocked because she threw a vase at his head. He's in jail and they gave me his earnings for y'all, but I still wanted to work, and I know getting this job will help me and you connect."

"Connect? You think since now you opened your eyes suddenly that's it all okay?! You're more dumber then I thought! You don't even care about what we're going through. Poor Makayla, where- where is she?! I'm having mixed emotions, oh my god!"

I bursted into tears. My father deserved every second he has in jail. My stepsister was only 15, she's was so innocent. Wow, what a pervert!

"She's at the hospital downtown, she should be released tonight but I'll take you to see her. Well I know you're gonna go with out me so yeah."

"You remember when this said you'd never put a man over your kids? Remember when you put me out because of my father 'cause you thought he was too "pure" to do anything as sick as touch his daughters? His only daughters, no sons! Now you see why I hate the both of you. If it wasn't for Normani, I would've been failing in school and homeless. You think talking it out helps, in a way it does but, you would never understand the pain, but I can't make you, and mostly, you don't give a damn, you just wanna be the Good Samaritan, in my book, you'll always be that cruel mother that kicked her daughter out for a man. I don't ever wanna talk to you again. Now this is your workplace, this'll be the only time you'll ever hear me speak to you, other than that, you words don't mean anything ! I'm out."

With that, I left. No matter how many talk we have, hell, all she'll talk about is forgiving her. But one thing she'll never understand is, forgetting is harder than forgiving.