Love The Way You Lie - A Michael Clifford/ 5sos Fanfiction

Chapter 22

Chapter 22

My head hurt and I felt way too hot as I woke up the next morning. It seemed way lighter out than when I usually wake up. I pried my head from my pillow to see the time. 1:00 in the afternoon. I rolled out of bed. I felt like shit. Truthfully, I didn’t get any sleep last night. All I could think of was what could have happened after I left Michael’s apartment. He could’ve overdosed and died. My mind also drifted to Michael’s parents. The encounter that I had with Pete was just bizarre because in a way, I felt as though I could trust him.

I groggily walked downstairs and saw my mom sitting on the couch, reading. She must’ve jumped three feet when I sat down beside her.

“Since when did you get home? I didn’t hear the door open.” She said, placing a hand over her heart. I cuddled up into her side.

“I came home last night. Michael and I got in a fight.” I said.

“Not too serious, I hope?” She asked with worry. I shrugged.

“It was just an argument,” I said, not daring to mention anything about the drugs. She knows about his overdose but as far as she knows, that was his first and only time. “You know how stubborn I am,” I chuckled. “I always have to storm out.”

My mom laughed a whole hearted laugh. “Yes, I know very well.”

I leaned my head on her shoulder, in thought.

“Hey how’s the boys doing? I haven’t seem them in ages!” She asked, referring to Ashton, Calum, and Luke. My heart panged with guilt. I haven’t properly hung out with my boys for a good few months. I texted all of them every once in a while but not like we used to.

“They’re fine.” I said, pretending as if I knew. My mom nodded.

“But have you been hanging around them lots?” She asked.

I shook my head. “I’ve barely been hanging around with you mom. I’ve been spending all of my time with Michael.” I said, realizing the words as I said them. That’s when I started crying.

My mom was right there to hold me and stroke my hair just like she did when I was a little girl. She whispered soft shh’s as I cried into her shirt.

“I haven’t even been talking to Kaylee enough. All I do is go to Michael’s, come here with Michael, go to the movies with Michael, go downtown with Michael, and then come home every few days to get more clothes. I’ve been ignoring the rest of my life!” I wailed into her shoulder. She was silent for a minute.

“Well do you not enjoy being with Michael?” She asked softly, still stroking my hair.

“Of course I do! But I feel guilty!” I cried.

“Payton, don’t feel guilty for being with someone that makes you happy. If you want to spend time with him then do it. My advice is to make an effort to be with other people that also make you happy. It doesn’t always have to be Michael.” She soothed before placing a light kiss on my forehead. “Want a cup of tea? We have herbal.” My mom offered.

I wiped my eyes and shook my head, letting a soft smile drift onto my lips. “No, I better get going. I have some apologizing to do.”

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It’s been a while since I stood on this doorstep. It’s sad how it’s only 20 feet away from mine but I still couldn’t make the time to do this anywhere in the past 2 months. With a deep breath I raised my fist to the door as it swung open.