The sacrifice

Chapter 3

The rays from the sun was burning on my body, I felt sweaty as I started stirring under the sheets. A groan escaped my lips. Why the fuck didn't I close the blinds before I went to sleep? My head was throbbing like someone sat in there beating on a bloody drum. My eyes was still closed when I sat on the edge of the bed bending forward to place my head between my knees, hands wrapped around it. Fuck! How much did I drink last night?

I heard a low voice humming in the next room. I snapped my eyes open, scanning my surroundings and realized I wasn't at home. Why the hell didn't I just go home when we were done? Why did I have to fall into a comfortable sleep? Dammit, this is gonna be awkward! Fuck! I quickly gathered my things, threw on my clothes and walked to the door.

"Let's just get this over with." I whispered in a low voice to myself. I turned the door handle and went through.

I stopped dead in my tracks, just looking at her. She was beautiful, just wearing blue panties and a tight fitting white tank top. Her hair was still a mess from last night, but she looked absolutely stunning. Looking over her shoulder she noticed me just standing there, gawking at her.

A smile formed on her face, "Morning, I made coffee and break....." She was now looking straight at me as she continued, "Oh, you're leaving already?"

"I uh.. I just.. I just thought..." I was able to stutter. My eyes averted from her. Why the fuck does she make me so nervous?

She quickly cut me of with a wave of her hand. "So it's like that? You just use them and lose them? I should have listened to my friends last night, they warned me about you, told me to stay away. I just thought...." She was angry, but her voice cracked on the last syllable. I could see tears starting to form in her eyes. She turned her back to me. "Just leave, I get it. It's just who you are!" She sobbed.

This really is who I am, but hearing from another person, it was hurtful. Get it together! Just leave! She wants you to! You can walk out here right now! But.. Why does it hurt me so much seeing her like this? I can't leave her like this. Last night was amazing, she's amazing! Maybe... I walked to stand in front of her and cupped her jaw, my thumbs swiping across her cheeks to wipe away her tears. Jessica swatted my hands away.

"Don't Mac! Just.. Don't." She cried.

"Jessica, I'm.."

"No!" She cut me off with a sharp glare. "I don't want to hear it, just leave!" She hid her face in her hands turning away. I sighed.

As I reached the door I hesitated, my hand resting on the handle. I took in a deep breath. Just go! GO! She don't want you here! Leave! I shook my head. FUCK! I walked up behind her, fingertips brushing her shoulder. WOA! Jessica spun on her heels, fist flying at my chest, but I was faster. I grabbed her wrist, pulling her close as I wrapped my arms around her I captured both her arms between our bodies.

Jessica struggled to get out of my embrace, but I just hugged her tighter. She cried into my neck.

"Hey. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to.." I sighed. "I'm not used to things like this"

"No, you chew them up and spit them out when you've had your way." Jessica scoffed.

I clenched my teeth. She's not wrong, like at all. It's the first time that I've EVER stayed. But seeing her cry like that stung me deeply, like a knife cut through my heart repeatedly. My normally hard exterior crumbled at the sight of her looking so vulnerable, and I just wanted to protect her from being hurt, even though I was the cause of it.

"I'm still here okay. I didn't leave." I whispered. After a minute in silence Jessica relaxed in her struggle to be free of me so I relaxed my grip a little. Jessica nodded, nuzzling against my neck as she wrapped her arms behind my back.