All over again (Larry Stylinson)

Chapter 30

(Harry's P.O.V.)

  I tried calling out to Louis but it was no use he was never going to come back. I didn't know what I was going to do with myself. What was my life going to become without Louis? Without Louis, I am nothing.

  I am just another person walking down the streets. I am just another person breathing the same air as everybody else. I am just the same person wanting to feel loved. I loved Louis I truly did but I guess he didnt love me as much as I actually loved him.

  There was only one choice left if I didn't have Louis and that was...

  Suicide.

  I knew what I was doing was a big step, but if I had to keep up with the lies and not feel loved by the one I truly care for then what was life even worth living for? Before I actually did this, I thought of easy ways to die.  Many ideas popped up in my head but I just decided to overdose. I had hoped that Louis had come to find me so I wrote a letter just in case he ever came back and I was dead.

  Louis,

  You mean the world to me and I would do anything to be with you. I would come out any day with you and tell the world I'm gay and that I love you. Keep up the great work in the band. I know you'll do fine without me you've always have. You are so beautiful.  Sorry if I haven't said that to you lately. You make me smile even though I don't want to. You know how to cheer me up when no one else does. There are so many words that have been left unsaid. So many memories that have been left undone. Yes I still get butterflies when I hear your name. Yes I still get nervous when you're around. Yes my heart skips a beat everytime I see you. And yes I never stopped caring about you. There are many fish in the sea but I choose you. There is oxygen all around us yet I need you to survive. The are many jokes in the world yet your the only one who can make me laugh. There are a lot of words in a dictionary yet I can't find one to describe how I feel about you. There are so many pieces to a puzzle but without you it's incomplete. There are 24 hours in a day but without you it feels longer. There is so much on this planet but without you it feels so empty. So don't think for one minute that I stopped caring because I always loved you and never stopped. Your my other half and you mean the world to me. I'm sorry I had to leave this way but it's my only choice. By the way, our families knew about us and thats all that mattered to me. Take care of our mums. Take care of yourself also. Don't let this change you in any way, this was my choice so don't blame yourself for anything.  I still love you but I'm guessing we can't be together any longer. I always feel so depressed and I'm tired of feeling that way. I hope you understand the choices that I am making. Don't ever forget that I, Harry Edward Styles love you, Louis William Tomlinson. You will forever be in my heart. I love you always. Yours truly, Harry Edward Styles.

  A few tears slipped out of my eyes and onto the paper. I couldn't help myself. I left the note on top of my desk and got the pill bottle right next to it.

  As I was about to over dose, the door barged open

  Louis.

  "Harry stop!"

  "I love you Louis" I grabbed the bottle and swallowed all of the pills. The last thing I saw was Louis face.

  I could slowly feel the drugs taking over my body.  I got drowsy, dizzy, and my vision started to blur. At the moment, every little thing just felt so wonderful. I had no worries and everything was good and fine.

  Despite Louis screams, it was quiet.  It didn't take that long before the drugs completely took over me. I didn't have much time so I decided to say some last words.

  "Don't forget me Louis..."

  "Please you don't have to do this.  I'm sorry I overreacted. Please Harry! "

  "I love you.. " I gently said before dying completely.

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A/n: Sorry if this was short but I hope you enjoy it!