All over again (Larry Stylinson)

Chapter 8

(Harry's P.O.V.)

  We finished singing the song, and I realized me and Louis have been looking into each others eyes the whole song. Maybe we were meant to be and Eleanor was just in the way. If we really were meant to be then Eleanor would have been out of the picture by now. Maybe he just doesn't know what to do.

(Later)

  It was almost midnight and by now all the lads left. It was back to just me and Louis. Today was the the day I was going to confess my feelings to Louis. I went to the bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror,  "Harry Edward Styles, you can do this, just tell him how you feel and everything will be okay."

  I exited the bathroom, only to find Eleanor making out with Louis on his bed. How long was I in the bathroom. Tears started rushing down my face. How could he, how.. dare he. Louis got up and realized the tears streaming down my face, "Harry what's wrong?!" he said.

  "I FUCKING LOVE YOU LOUIS TOMLINSON! BUT I GUESS THAT YOU WOULD RATHER BE WITH THAT SLUT THEN ME!" I screamed as tears were rushing down my face. I didn't even bother to grab a jacket, I didnt care if it was raining.  My heart was broken into one million pieces and nobody would be able to put it back together.

  I ran out of the dorm and out of the building. It was pouring outside and I didn't even care. Getting sick wasn't even on my mind, Louis was on my mind and how he broke my heart. He doesn't even care about me or my feelings about him.

  I was still crying my eyes out, how could I stop after I saw the one I cared about kissing a stupid slut. I just ran, far from campus. I just wanted to escape. Escape everything and everyone.

  I found a piece of sharp glass on the ground and removed my bracelets and threw them on the ground.  I held onto the glass so hard that it started to cut the palm of my hand. I pointed the sharpest piece to my arm and began cutting all the way down to my wrist. 

  Once I was satisfied with the cuts I dropped the piece of glass and dropped to my knees crying even more. It wasn't because of the fresh cuts that appeared all over my arms and wrists. It was the feeling of being broken.

  Louis came looking for me and saw what I did. He looked at my broken face and started to cry. He grabbed me and kissed me. Our lips slowly moved in sync. I realized what I was doing and I pushed away. I pushed away a little too rough, causing me to trip and fall and hit my head on the bench that was nearby.

  Before blacking out Louis grabbed my delicate, cut up, and bruised body and cried while saying, "I, Louis William Tomlinson love you, Harry Edward Styles." That was the last thing I heard before blacking out completely.

(The next morning)

  I was in a blue hospital gown that had cute little ducks on it. I guess I was too skinny to fit in the adult hospital gowns. I opened my eyes and saw a monitor beeping at the pace of my heart. I looked around and then I saw someone with their head down on the bed. It was Louis.

  Louis woke up with his eyes all red and puffy, almost looks like he had been crying. "Harry! Oh thank god you're alive!" he said. "Get away from me" I said with a tears running down my face.

  He looked at me and began to cry."You love Eleanor, remember?" I said while wiping away my tears. "You and her are good for each other, just.. just forget about me and anything I've ever said to you. I won't get in your way anymore, I promise." I said.

  "But Harry you-" I cut him off. "Save it, please just leave" I started crying even more. He did as I said and got up, but before he left he said, "Don't forget that I love you." He walked off and closed the door, I began to cry even more. What did I do to deserve any of this.

  I looked down at my arms and saw the red scars left from the cuts I had made last night. They didn't hurt, so im pretty sure the nurses put some type of antibiotic. After Louis left, no one else came to visit me. It was no surprise since most people don't like me.

  A nurse by the name of Coraima gave me some food to eat. I thanked her and she smiled. She then looked down at my arms and gasped,  "Oh my goodness honey I'll go get some antibiotics for that." I nodded and she quickly ran out of the room causing me to be lonely once again.

  She came back and put the cream on my arms,"There you go, does it feel better?" I nodded and she smiled, "If you need anything just press this button that says nurse and I will come right away." I nodded and smiled and then she left. Once she left, a question popped in my mind.. Why am I still alive?