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Ollie Garland (Betty)

Ollie Garland One Shot (Betty)

It wasn’t as simple as it should be. Yes, I was mentally prepared for this time to happen, but at the same time I wasn’t. We had been talking about it for months and I knew this moment was going to happen. I didn’t know it was going to be this soon. No, I didn’t want to let go of him at this moment. All I wanted to do was hold on to him, take him home and never let him leave me. I was being selfish, I know, but I couldn’t help it. I wanted him to make his dream reality and I wanted him to never leave my side. But the combinations of the two were impossible.

So, here I am holding on to him, crying loudly at his ear and never wanting to let go. In reality this moment was going to end and I was going to go back home to an empty flat. I wasn’t ready for this. The months and months of mental training seemed to vanish at this very moment.

“I have to go, Betty.” He whispered, yet again, in my ear.

“Please, don’t.” I held onto him tighter. He smelled liked coconut and honey. I was going to miss this; I was going to miss him.

“I will come back, you know this;” He reassured me. It still wasn’t enough for me to let go. “I will always text you and we can even facetime. I won’t leave you.”

“But you are leaving me.”

His shoulders slouched a bit. I had hit a nerve.

“Yes, I am leaving you. I am going to make a career for myself, for us. I am coming back, but I will be coming back with a stable life for the both of us.”

I’ve never heard Ollie talk so sure of himself. I smiled. He was doing this for the both of us. He wasn’t being selfish like me. I gave him a tight squeeze before finally letting go of him.

“I’m going to miss you.” I tried my best to ignore the evident tears.

“I will miss you more.” I kissed my forehead and hugged me again.

So, this is it. He was going with four other guys and making their dreams reality. While I stay home and just wait for him to come to me. It doesn’t sound fair at all, but that is how it is supposed to me.

We both ignored the speaker announcing the time of departure. We just ignored everyone for a moment. This moment; this precise moment is the one I want to remember. How he is holding both of my hands right now. How he is smiling through his watery eyes. How he is just staring at me like I’m the only one here. I want to remember this. I want to remember the Ollie before the riches and before the fame. I want to remember the Ollie that would throw pebbles to my window so we could sneak out and see the stars together. I want to remember the Ollie that was so extroverted when he met my parents for the first time. That is the Ollie I want to remember because once he comes back to me everything will change. I don’t know if it is going to be for the better or for the worst, but I know I want to be here to find out.

“Come back to me.” I said one last time.

He nodded and turned around and left.