Messy Love (Ed Sheeran)

Ex's Apology

I waited, squeezing in between the crowd just as the introduction music started. 

I rose an eyebrow as people would look at me, smile, then move and yell back at the stage... I was surprised they didn't know that I was behind them..

Guess I'm not as known as I thought.. .-.

But then again, as I slid behind them, the familiar scent of..well.. um... weed lurked among them...

That explains a lot.

Anyways, once the crowd began to roar, I looked up on stage,  and I couldn't help but smile at the sight...

Her dress that fit tightly across her curves that I missed so greatly...

That smile. It was... beautiful.

Her laugh sent a massive army of feelings to the  pit of my stomach.

It was weird to be in the crowd of fans for once, and when she spoke, I couldnt help but subconsciously cheer, too. I mean, when one third of the audience is high, it's a great opportunity to try and blend in.

She then waved up at someone in the crowd, and for a dark second, I thought it'd be another guy... and in that split second I turned, she met my gaze, and she had froze.. before I turned to see who she waved..

and I froze.

"Alice?" I murmured...and the blood rushed through my veins in bewilderment.. my face reddening.

Alice's smile...

It had been months since I last had seen her.. and when she turned to me, her blue eyes sharp on my own.

Oh bloody hell.

She walked towards me.. and I faked a smile.. my face reddening even more in anger that she is approaching me right in front of Barbara.

"Ed! How are you? How the hell are you blending into the crowd?" she laughed.. her voice making me twitch.

"Oh.. um.. they're high," I barely sputtered.  She rose an eyebrow, and we both looked at the fans in front... before one of them eyed me for a double take..

"Oops, think they found out," she giggled, before looking up at the stage.. Barbara's voice echoing beautifully as she hit a high note... and Alice's smile dropped.

"I need to talk to you. Let's go," She bubbled before grabbing my wrist and pulling me along.

I laughed nervously.. not trying to be rude.

Once I left the side of the stadium,  I don't know if it was me, but I swore the piano stopped.. was that part of the song?

There was a stutter in keys before Barbara's voice filled the air again.. thay worried me and made me a hit frustrated that I was backstage with my ex when I came here to get back with Barbara...

It would make me look like a dick if paps saw...

"What is it, Alice?" I came to a stop and looked away, pulling her grasp off.

She froze, her smile disappearing.

"Well someone's in a bad mood," she laughed.. I pursed my lips.

"You're always misunderstanding," I blurted bluntly.. and she looked at me as she furrowed her eyebrows.

"Yeah, pretty sure that's why we broke up," she said blankly now, looking down at her phone.

"Alice, I have things to do and-,"

"I know.. I just.. want to apologize, " she cut me off.

"Apologize? "

Alice kept her eyes on the ground.

"Ed...I just wanted to make sure you understand that you and I,"

"are not even close to ever being anything," I fought back.

"Ed, I'm sorry okay.. Can we just get over this and be friends?" she grumpled.

"No, you ruined us," I hissed, the thoughts of Barbaras face when she called me a cheater...

Alice sighed.

"That's why I'm sorry.. but Ed.. I really regret being the reason for you two separating," she had begun.

I listened closely and realized Barbara was already onto her fourth song.. next up is Demi.. I need to speak with Barbara soon.. I wanted to meet her in her backstage room.

"Your point is, Alice? I really need to go," I tried to hurry her.

"Ed, Barbara is something else... she'd been texting me... but..her intentions were only to make you happy, I mean.. look," she passed me her phone. I eyed her before looking down at the text.

I know.. I just.. I just hope you two aren't regretting anything.. He seems so upset at you..He should'nt be holding so much anger.. and he must be hurt.. and you are too.. so I just want to make sure you guys get closure at least.. You both deserved the best.. and to know that I'm in the middle kills me to the core. I just.. want what's best for him, even if it means me letting him go. Sorry to rant. Stay beautiful, Alice. Goodnight.

To see how Alice was right... it made me feel confused... because I didnt know how to feel about what I just read.

"Just know that you've got the real deal..and that you're the winner she chose.. Don't take her love for granted," Alice finished.. before waving and leaving.

Her words hit home.. and I nodded sheepishly.

"Thank you," I barely let out. She bowed her head awkwardly.

"No problem. See ya around, bud," she looked up behind me before pursing her lips and waving goodbye... before she hurried away.

Why'd she leave so suddenly?

I turned around to find Barbara entering the building..her fave seeming blank and a bit sad..

This is my chance... But I hoped she didn't see Alice.

She's always catching me at the wrong moments.

"Barbara! " I called as I jogged, but the door already closed. My stomach churned with nervousness.. and I smiled a bit.

Here goes nothing.

No, here goes everything.