Messy Love (Ed Sheeran)

Talk It Out

"Barbara, I'm sorry, love. Just let me in so we can talk.. that's all I want to do. Talk," he pleaded through the crease of the door.

My back was against it, my hands tight on the knob.

I closed my eyes that had tears drifting off my cheeks as Ed's soft voice sent a piece of my emotions into sanctuary, while it took another into a feeling of fear when I thought about my baby inside me.

"Barbara...," Ed sighed.

So without thinking, I turned around and opened it, and Ed- having his weight on the door- came stumbling forward, catching his balance inches from my face.

It'd been a while since we were so close.

I could feel his breath on my face as his eyes watched me closely.

I let my gaze fall down to his neck... the...ring still hanging off the fabric of his black necklace.

I furrowed my eyebrows as my anger whirled into place. I took a step back.

"What's wrong?"

"That stupid necklace," I muttered as I turned to the wall, watching my own reflection on the dressing mirrors, watching his expression change.

"Stupid?" his tone sounding offended.

"You embarassed me in front of the whole world, Ed. The whole fucking world." I hissed as I replayed his drunken words from the television screen.

"Was that you're way of getting back at me? That your way of making me feel even more guilty?" I turned back to him, where he stood frozen, his mouth open in disbelief, his eyebrows twisted down onto his eyelids.

"Guilty? Barbs, what are you talking about? I'd never want to do anything to you," He took a step forward, his tone full of bewilderment.

"You know exactly what I'm talking about,Ed! I understand that you still have feelings for her, but for you to wear around that damn ring like.. like a trophy.. it makes me feel so shitty! And what makes things so much worst is that I didn't know it'd hurt me this much to see you and...her !" I rose my voice in anger...I was letting it all out for once.. and I wanted to cry so badly.

Ed shook his head, sending his hand through his red hair.

"What makes you think I'd ever want to be with Alice?" He asked softly.. I shrugged, taking a breath.

"You keep smiling when I talk about her," I furrowed my eyebrows, looking up to see him with that smirk again.

His blue eyes shifted between my own, and I let out an exasperated sigh, before turning away and sitting down on the chair.

I hate yelling...so I looked down at the desk...feeling guilty once again. I read the calculations I had made before i left onstage, and took this moment of silence to finish it up.

"That doesn't mean anything," And I closed my eyes... There's no use.

"Okay ahuh sure," I said sarcastically... Damn, I was not expecting to be this aggressive. He chuckled and I looked up to him frustratingly.

"What's so damn funny? I seriously can't seem to get it," my voice broke in an attempt to sound angrier. His smile disappeared.

"Barbara, don't cry... I'm.. I'm sorry.. Whatever you think happened.. it didn't.. I mean, Alice called me over to tell me.... to be with you," his words made me freeze.

"What?" I blurted in confusion.

"She appreciates what you were trying to do...and now, we're on good terms I suppose," he rubbed the back of his neck as he looked down at the ground. That took me by surprise... And I suddenly felt regret for yelling at him so badly.

"Does that help all these misunderstandings?" He finished.

I sheepishly nodded my head.

"I've never seen you so blunt," he blushed... "But I like it," he purred. What was up with him...but nonetheless, I felt my face redden.

He literally just said everything I needed to hear... cleared everything out..

There was another small silence in the room.

"We fundraised 3.1 million dollars," I mumbled as I wiped a tear from my eye.

"That's brilliant," he replied in a velvet hum.

I looked up at him... Why wasn't he yelling at me? Why was he so calm?

The way he looked at me sent my heart fluttering...and even though we could easily make up right now... Because I know damn well that I love Ed, and his gaze reassured he felt something too...

But why won't he say it?

I didn't know what else to say, what else to do than to tell him the truth.

"Ed?" I sighed...sucking up all the fear and looking down as I stood up, fixing my dress to reveal the bump.

I looked up and opened my mouth, before I was taken by surprise when his arms wrapped around my waist, and his lips fell so perfectly onto my own.

His skin against mine, the warmth so soothing, his familiar kiss.

I sent my arm around his torso, his hair rubbing against my forehead.

He pulled away when the the sound of a knock came against the door behind him.

His breath was against my cheek as he grazed my chin.

"I love you, Barbara...," he chuckled before pecking my cheek. "I really do,"

"Barbara? Is Ed with you?" Stuarts voice echoed in the room.

I was still dazed by the kiss.. But we both chuckled.

"Yes, mate," Ed called back.

"Well, You're on in ten, Trevor is ready for you," his voice seemed intrigued.

"I'm on it," he kissed me again, cuffing my neck as he pressed together tightly.

There goes my heart.

"Be mine again?" He whispered...and I closed my eyes, him setting his forehead against mine.

And I nodded my head, letting out a sigh of relief...only thinking of his lips on mine once again. The door then opened and I opened my eyes, both of us turning to look. Stuart stood there, his eyebrows raised, a smirk on his face as he scanned us both.

"Eddie, I'm glad you two lovebirds reunited but but you've got 200,000 people waiting for you," he dead panned.

Ed nodded before turning back to me, tightening his grip on my waist, setting his aqua iris' onto me.

"What did you want to say before I interrupted,love?" He rubbed his hand against my back... And then I remembered what I was going to say...

"N-Nothing," I murmured.

He rose an eyebrow, before setting his hands on my cheeks, using his thumb to wipe away what must've been makeup.

"Then come see my performance... I have a surprise for you," he then pulled my wrist, intertwining my fingers with his as he pulled me along.

"Okay," was all I could say...and as we walked out, a part of me felt so completely content... But then a piece of my mind thought of one other thought...

I have a surprise for you, too.