Sorry it took me a while to get this out. I didn't have my computer for the drive back and when we got home I had to move all of my things over to my aunts house and I'm living with her now. I also had an abscessed tooth pulled a few days after we got back. I started my first job on Wednesday, July 6, 2010....it's been hectic and sorry but i didnt look over this much but i hope it's good and hope you like it!!! comment and vote please. <3
and yes the band name is ironic but i couldnt think of another song for this chapter (yes i do put thought into the songs...just a little bit) but i dont have my mp3 :p
-Henry
BEEEEEPPPP
BBBEEEEEEPPPP
BBBEEEEEEEPPPPP
This was al my fault. Why did I have to go over to Will's then? I should have waited till morning. I should have been the one to push HIM out of the way instead of the other way around. I'm an idiot, a stupid, stupid idiot and it's all my fault that my baby's hurt, my entire fault.
The doctors said that he'll recover but to what extent is the question. He broke one arm and completely shattered the other. One doctor mentioned that the tourniquets helped save his one arm because a fractured piece of glass cut into a major artery and if he lost too much blood their might not have been anything they could do to save the arm or he could have bled to death.
They also said that Alex has two broken ribs and a fractured a third one. The leg that was hit by the car was broken and the knee was cracked. They said he was hit from the side and when he hit the cement it almost fractured his skull but luckily it only broke his arm. The doctor said it most likely wouldn't have broke if he landed on it in a normal position; his arm bent back when he went to save me.
The thought brought tears to my eyes. Alex went through so much pain for me. He could have easily jumped out of the way and let me get hit...the big idiot. If he wasn't hurt I would whack the back of his head but instead I settled for slowly running my thumb in a soothing rhythm on the back of his hand.
-Will
After Alex was out of the operating room they put him in the ER because they wanted him to have close observation and they still had to do few more things. The only time Henry was away from Alex was when he was in the operating room. The second they put him in a room Henry was by his side. Grace and I gave Henry a few minutes alone with him while we went to the bathroom and cleaned up as best we could. I still had blood on me from helping Alex and I know Grace had some on her because of me. I had extra work shirts and pants in my car so we changed into those. They might not be pleasant but at least their not bloody.
After we had our sink showers I took Grace over to the vending machine and got her something to eat for breakfast or as best I could. I also got something for Henry and then we headed back over to Alex's room.
Grace turned to me and quietly asked "what's his room number again?" those were the first words she had spoken since last night before the accident happened. She sounded like she was afraid to talk, like something bad would happen at the sound of her voice. I brought her into a hug but she did nothing in reply so I answered just as quietly "they said Alex was in room 308."
-Henry
Will and Grace got me something to eat and I tried to eat it but I just couldn't. I felt like I was going to throw up at the sight of food. So I've been here all night and day with Alex. The nurse asked me if I wanted a cot but I also couldn't sleep. I wouldn't let go of Alex's hand until he was awake. Will and Grace left around eight o'clock because visiting hours were over but they said they'd be back tomorrow and they needed their sleep.
Alex was on pain medication that kept him asleep and I'm just glad that he couldn't feel the pain. I never want him to be in pain, ever.
A few days later...I'm not sure exactly when because the days are blurring together ...but eventually Alex, the love of my life, woke up. At first I didn't see his eyes start to flutter open because the sting in my eyes and my half awake half asleep state. But then he tugged on his arm and I looked up at his face, it was scrunched up in pain. His cheek was still scraped from the road and his nose was also cut. It seemed that any movement he did would result in pain.
He looked like he was trying to sit up or face me better so I tried to find a safe place on him that I could push back down. I placed my hand on his shoulder and told him "Alex baby, you idiot, you stupid, stupid, STUPID, idiot." I started crying and I wept "never do that to me again. Never put me through that much pain and worry again.....ohhh I love you Alex. I love you, I love you, I love you." If it weren't for his injuries I'd be hanging off of him like a child would there mother but I didn't want to hurt him or break one of his casts.
He looked like he was trying to get up again so I said "no hunny lay down. You're going to hurt yourself." He opened his mouth like he was trying to say something but all I could hear was his breathing. He squinted his eyes and then I thought I could hear him say something. He coughed a little and then I asked "do you want water." In response he gave a barely noticeable nod.
He could only get a little of the water down; it was hard for him because he was lying down. Then, after the water, he choked out "Horn dog...Stitch." I smiled and said "ohhhh Alex. Everything is going to be alright. You're going to be fine. It's just a few broken bones. Nothing that can't heal." By the time I was finished talking I was a sobbing mess. Something hit my arm and I looked over at. It was one of Alex's arm casts. It looked like it took all of his energy but he slowly mumbled out "no Henry, sweetheart, baby, don't cry, at least not for me. You know I hate seeing you cry. So please don't for me, please. I love you." I wiped away my tears and forced out a lighthearted smile for Alex.
Oh how I had missed this silly little boy over the span of a few days. Those few days amounted to years though in my time, maybe even decades. I missed his voice, his laughter, his touch, and his cute little quarks like refusing to use a public bathroom. I missed his entire entity, his being. I needed him right now. He was my protector.
I couldn't touch anywhere on him with out hurting him except his right shoulder and neck. So I put my right hand on the bed to his left side my left hand on the meeting point for his neck and shoulder. I then leaned slowly in and lightly pecked his lips with the lightest pressure I could. He tried to deepen the kiss but I pulled away because I could tell it was causing him pain to strain his face.
Alex breathed out "no kiss me." I looked at him funny and stated "no, not if it's going to hurt you. You won't be hurt because of me again." He sighed and said "It's my choice and I could never blame you for getting hurt. Well if you cheated or something that's a different story but you know what I mean. None of this was your fault. It all came down to my choices and if I want you to kiss me and I know you want to kiss me then I don't see why we can't kiss." It was a lot for him to get out there but he eventually did. I sighed and pleaded "but I don't want to hurt you."
He tried to get up again so I pushed him back down and said "stop trying to get up Alex. You're going to hurt yourself even more...if that's possible." Then he mumbled "well if you won't kiss me then I'm going to kiss you." Ohhh damn his evil smirk....
IMPORTANT: is anyone against sex scenes or wants me to write them less graphicly. just tell me by a private message and i wont tell anyone. i just need to know for the future and in not telling you of which or both couples it involves.
should i just
1. skip the scene
2. write a little of the scene
3. write the whole thing out but give a warning
thanks!!!
p.s. i have work again tomorrow and the next day but ill try and get some writing time in there. i work at old country buffet as a line server and in bakery. i get 8 dllers an hour...which is alot for a trainee...ohhh yaaa im just that good ;)...lol but dont worry ill still have time to write and ill try to get chapters out sooner but my internet has been acting up and i cant connect most of the time...it's because i just moved in with my aunt.....
