-recap
He kissed my forehead then said "go take a shower and I'll clean up. When you're done I'll get mine." I kissed his cheek and against it I said "you taste good, like caramel." Then I left to get a shower.
-grace
We showered and Will had cleaned up. Now were watching tv together. He was holding my hand then started rubbing circles on the back of my hand with his thumb. He said "who are you thinking of inviting...to the wedding I mean."
I said "our parent's and Henry of course, Some of our other friends at school, or our parents friends. Ummmm you think of anyone else? " he kept rubbing the calming circles on the back of my hand. He said "what about any of your previous families?" I stiffened.
It hit me like a boulder. Every time I get close to someone or they say they care about me they leave. I get shipped off to someone else every time I get close to them. one minute I would feel at home, loved, and the next I would be dumped on another persons door step, then another and another. The only reasons the Soman's didn't leave me was because I wouldn't let them in. I wouldn't let them care. I can't let Will in because then he won't want me any more. I WONT let him leave me. If the only way to make him stay is to stay away from him then I will.
I ripped my hand from his. He looked over questioningly but I just faced forward, watching the tv. He said "Grace?" I wouldn't show him how much I cared so I just said "hhhhhm?" he took my hand back and turned my face to look at him. He asked "Grace...what's wrong? You look angry." I looked down and mumbled "nothing." I could tell he didn't believe me but he didn't pressure me to tell him. I was grateful for that.
The rest of the night went by without trouble. It was time to go to bed. We headed to his room. He tossed me one of his t-shirts and a pair of his boxers. I went into the bathroom and changed.
When I came back out he was only in a pair of boxers. I couldn't help but stair at him, his flawless stomach and sculpted chest. He saw me staring and I blushed. He laughed and then came over to me. He leaned down and kissed my forehead. I put my hands on his chest and let them rest there. His lips stayed pressed against my forehead until I pulled away. I promised myself that I wouldn't become vulnerable to him so he could use it against me like everyone else. But man, was he making it hard. All I wanted to do was throw him back on the bed and make him moan my name. No, I wouldn't. Then he'd leave like every other family I was sent to and I couldn't let that happen.
He came back over to me and picked me up. I couldn't help but laugh. I asked "what are you doing Will." He laughed along with me then threw me on the bed. I was holding on to him for dear life so he fell on top of me. We couldn't stop giggling. We were laughing so hard that we accidentally bumped heads.
He rolled off of me but still held my hand. We were trying to catch our breaths. When we were calmer Will rolled over to face me. He placed the palm of his hand against my cheek and tilted my head up he kissed my forehead and whispered "good night Grace." I kissed his cheek and whispered "night...Will"
Right before I fell asleep I thought I felt something briefly peck my lips and whisper "tomorrow I'm telling you my feelings. I love you Grace."
WILL'S pov
She had fallen asleep and I was lying there thinking about...everything. I was afraid to tell her I loved her. I knew that she was afraid to love me. She never grew up in a loving environment. That's why she would shut herself off from love. She was polite and respectful to the Soman's but she never saw them as her family. I need to show her that we love and care for her. I think I know how I'm gonna tell her that I love her tomorrow. I have to tread lightly; I don't want her to over react.
These are the chapters' songs
Over my head by the fray
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EWBNRs0QC04
My immortal by evanescence
HYPERLINK "http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B-A-4NQfFRs&feature=related" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B-A-4NQfFRs&feature=related
Clarification- no one who adopted her kept her. She never had a real family for most of her life. She is mentally healthy but some therapy would help her. She thinks when you love someone or they love you, they leave. She doesn't have one person who loves her in her life that she knows about. She thinks she's alone but she's not. It will be better explained in the next chapter.
