A Love Letter ⭐Yoonkook⭐

Letter 91

Dear Yoongi,

After I had left the hospital I isolated myself in my room.

My parents keep knocking on the door and asking if I am okay. I ignored them and curled myself deeper into my pile of blankets and pillows.

How am I supposed to be okay?

The one person in this world that I truly loved was dying from cancer and the pain of it had become too much so he took his own life.

How the hell am I supposed to move on?

I keep hoping that it was all fake. That you are still alive and you just had to switch hospitals. I'm waiting for you to walk up and knock on my door.

But you never do.

You never will.

A knock did come from my door, but the voice wasn't yours.

I ignored Namjoon and tried to cover my face when the door opened. I didn't want him to see how much of a mess I was. I didn't want him to see me with tears rolling down my cheeks and my eyes puffy. I pulled the blankets up over my head but he still walked over.

I felt the bed dip down next to me as he sat. His arms were wrapped around me and the feeling of warmth from another person made me cry harder. I don't want his warmth, I don't need it.

I want you.

I need you.

He tried his best to comfort me and eventually I pushed the blankets off of me and reached up to him. I desperately wrapped my arms around his neck and cried. All he did was hold me.

All I did was wish I could be with you forever.

He ended up spending the rest of the day with me and then stayed the night as well. Anytime I would try to do anything he would follow along behind me.

It is like he doesn't trust me with myself.

I don't blame him though.

I don't trust me either.

~Kookie