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"i just don't know if it can be me." richie sighed.

"look rich, i'm gonna leave that decision to you. you need to figure out your feeli-" richie cut off eddie's statement.

"but i know my feelings!" he exclaimed. "i'm just..." he collected his thoughts wondering what he should say next. he was almost sure he knew how eddie felt about him but there was always that small chance that things wouldn't work out. richie was so scared to risk that. "so scared."

"carpe diem." eddie said.

"wait you've seen that mo-" eddie laughed, the thought of a movie in between a confession of love lightened the mood.

"and i cry every time. it's one of my favorites." eddie admitted. "would have been funnier if i just said i knew latin." the two boys smiled.

"now it feels strange to return to our previous topic. but as you were saying...carpe diem." richie returned the topic to the previous, "i love you." he finally said.

"i know." eddie confessed.

"how?!" richie seemed surprised.

"well if it wasn't from how you acted," eddie laughed then hesitated wondering if he should admit he was awake during richie's first confession. he finally decided he should tell him. "it was from when you said it."

"when?" richie asked.

"when you thought i was asleep."

richie didn't say much just, "oh." but eddie responded.

"it's okay." eddie smiled. "i spent a long time wondering how i felt about you. it wasn't until you admitted all of that, that i knew. but then," eddie didn't want to bring up eli. she was beautiful and made eddie beyond insecure, it made him feel like he was no longer the most important person in richie's life.

"then eli came into your life and it made me feel so out of place." richie hugged eddie, as eddie hugged richie earlier. they were both spilling everything to each other in a matter of an hour. eddie missed it.

im going to bed, i just wanted to get an update out for this.

1. i kinda have writers block rn i need to think of ways to keep this going it feels so rushed.

2. i have and ELA Essay test on friday which is supposed to prep me for the EOC and i just wanna cry

3. i've been going outside so often lately, it's actually really good for me. woo! physical health. i'm actually proud bc i go through bouts where i stay inside for months or go outside for months and being outside really makes me happy cause ya know friends, vitamin D all that fun stuff. anyways that's just been keeping me away from writing but i gotchu this weekend

4. i really wanna know what you guys think of this book bc it's really a scrap book that i, for some reason, decided to publish immediately unlike the other 7 books i have had in my drafts for the past 4 months. so i hop ya'll enjoy it. please comment your feedback, tips, suggestions literally anything. ya'll have been reading my words i wanna read yours.