Refresh [Izaya X OC ff]

Chapter 36

"You're going outside Tokyo?"

I was surprised to find Shizuo's expression seemed bothered after I announced my plan. I'd decided to take any university outside Tokyo after that last incident (I don't want to remember it again). Just imagining study with a lot of mind of being afraid approached by Izaya, I would be distracted and paranoid.

"You've already found the university?" Shizuo continued asking. I shook my head.

"Why suddenly outside Tokyo?" he frowned. Strange, why Shizuo looked unhappy?I thought he would support me whatever my option was. I pressed my lips together, unsure if I should give an honest answer and told what's happened two days ago.

At the end, I couldn't. "I'm sorry." That was the only thing I could say to him. Shizuo clicked his tongue.

"Is it because of that bastard?" Shoot. He hit on the right spot. I couldn't come up with any lie, so I just gave him a long silence. Shizuo, looked like he had expected the answer, let out a heavy sigh.

"I understand. It's not like I can stop you."  Unexpectedly, he didn't ask more, nor try to stop me again. I looked up to his face. Though he tried to hide it with his scary poker face, I still managed to see the sadness in his eyes. I felt bad.

I knew one the consequences of leaving your hometown was to leave my best friend, especially Shizuo. We only met three years ago, but I still held him dearly. I remembered at first we were kinda on a bad term because of a miscommunication, but Shizuo has become one of the most important people in my life now.

I couldn't believe that I was already in the final year. I had to leave school and moved forward to the next level. I would be going to college, started to think of real work. I felt old for all of sudden.

Growing up ahead made me felt bad for Azami. It looked like I left her behind. 

That was all because of Izaya.

No, even if Izaya never met her, she would have been dead eventually.

What a cruel friend I was for not knowing where she was and how she was doing. If only I put more effort in searching her, I would have been by her side until her death. Azami wouldn't spend her last day in depression. I was terrible as her best friend.

"Keiko, you want to eat?" Shizuo tapped my desk, waking me up from my mind. I blinked, didn't realise that the class had over. Damn, I didn't pay any attention to the lesson earlier.

"You can go first, I have to go to the bathroom."

"I can wait for you on the outside."

I ended up walking to the bathroom with Shizuo. Shizuo waited at the outside, though he kinda scared the girls that got out or went to the bathroom a bit. It didn't take a long time for me to be in there. I just needed to wash my face and calm myself down after sank in into Azami's memories. 

Breath in. 

Breath out. 

I gripped the sink and stared at myself in the mirror.

I looked like a mess. Stressed up because of the college, and get rid of my mind from Izaya. Darn, everything had been over but why I still crying over Izaya? That is what you get when you're being too loyal to a friend.

Okay. I think I finally able to calm down. However, as I pushed the door, suddenly I heard an angry shout coming from the outside.

Oh, no. I rushed outside and found Shizuo was standing furiously in front of...

Argh! Such a nuisance! And I thought I would never see him again after days since that incident.

I looked at Izaya who wore a smirk as usual, while his both hands were inside his pocket. He seemed like he was enjoying, while Shizuo. Gosh, his face was red as a tomato. What did Izaya say to him this time?