Refresh [Izaya X OC ff]

Chapter 25

It wasn't surprising anymore to hear that Mikage liked Izaya. She spent a lot of time with him. But the thing that messed me up was that we liked the same person. I had considered Mikage as my close friend and I felt guilty because of that.

But think about it again, Izaya didn't share the same feeling that I had, so I shouldn't think too much. I even didn't want to have him more than a best friend.

Honestly, I was still confused about my own feeling. I was still struggling to see whether I want Izaya as my remain best friend or more than it. I needed an advice, but I didn't know what should I ask and who should I ask with.

"Are you alright?"

I lifted my head which I had rested on the table ever since the lunch break started. Shizuo looked at me with a concerned expression. I really appreciate his care for me.

"You're not eating?" He asked again.

"I'm not hungry," I answered.

"You should eat. You don't look fine to me."

I only stared at him. Shizuo looked a bit awkward by my stare. He stuttered. "W-What?"

"Shizuo, have you ever liked someone?"

I swore he turned panicked as soon as I questioned that. His face turned red as a tomato. "W-Why would you ask that?!"

Should I tell him? Shizuo had been nice to me so it wouldn't be harm to share him my secret. But what if he asked who was the person. I couldn't just simply tell his enemy name in front of him.

But, I felt guilty for keeping the secret from him.

"I like someone, Shizuo," I confessed. Shizuo stunned. His eyes widened.

Surprisingly he didn't ask more. Instead, he only responded with, "Is that so?" without looking at my eyes.

I nodded. "But I've been struggling with the feeling."

"What do you mean?"

"I like him, yet I don't want to make him mine, or so what people say." I sighed. "I see him as a friend and I don't want to lose it. But I just..." I messed my hair in frustration. "I'm so confused."

Shizuo just stood in front of me, didn't reply anything. Then he put his hand on my head as he patted it. "Liking someone doesn't mean that you have to have him."

I looked up, meeting his eyes.

"As long as you're with him, it's fine." Shizuo continued.

"Shizuo, you sound like you experienced it once." I joked.

Shizuo blushed. "Well..."

"Shizuo! Keiko!" Shinra appeared by us suddenly, interrupting our talk. "Want to have a lunch together?"

"It's so rare to hear you asking me to have a lunch together." I blurted. Shinra always went to the laboratory and spent time in there. On top of that, he rarely asked someone for a lunch. Funny, when we were in middle school, we just ate together without having to ask. 

"I feel like we rarely spent time together recently," Shinra answered in joy. "I'm waiting for you at the rooftop."

We could have come together, but Shinra had already left the class. Shizuo and I stared at each other, thinking whether we should accept his offer. Shinra looked excited so we decided to join him at the rooftop after taking our lunch.

When we arrived at the rooftop, Shinra waved his hand to us, sitting down on the floor nearby the fence. His lunch box was on his laps. He ate before us.