The Wine in Your Thoughts

Secrets

Holding secrets for you wasn't bothering me when you told me to. But, the fact that all these secrets comes with other surprises that wasn't in the plan will have to make me rethink the moment I trusted you with all my secrets. It wasn't hard for me to leave all these moments behind and think about a better situation or relation with the most important human in life. Helping you wasn't the issue, and of course having you either. I was thinking the same thing when you had the chance to show me what the real person and human being madly in love would be. But, at the other hand it wasn't the case. In our case it was more than what we have thought will be the special secret. And hold that bigger one wasn't the problem. I wonder that in life when we have to make the big decision to let go and go separate ways. Is it going to be the same? Are those secrets going to remain a secret? Are the moments we lived are going to be a memory or is it going to be a regret? You let me know from the start that our promises are going to be always a promise. Never a lie. The passion and the secrets will all be burned in the fire of what we created. Those secrets will always be the point of my view to hold on to the next for dear life. I can't assure you by now what will be the future, because we don't even know what it will be. That's our secret. The love built and the passion we felt will always be intact and the secrets will always be a secret. I don't doubt in the way you tell me things, cuz I know it might be true. But, that is another topic. The reasons for our fights are another story. I knew from the start that it was going to be like this. And I denied to see it. I doubted all the time if you were telling the truth or you were just playing. But now we don't know what we felt was real. We can't say the real reason for the parting and the main objective of your visit. I guess all that is going to be a mystery until we meet again. If we do.

Listening to you makes me think that I'm repeating the same thing again. I know you won't understand it when I say it to you. I know I'm making the same mistake again and that is so wrong. I kind of like everything you told me. I will want to believe you. Because everything you say makes me think twice because I don't seemed to accept the fact that you like me. And I know that it's not easy for me to repeat the same thing over and over. But the story is starting to repeat itself and I'm scared of it. I don't want to do the same thing I did back then when I felt it was wrong. I can quit now but, we made it too far to play as if nothing has happened. It scares me to know that you won't be there help me get through whatever I'm facing right now.

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