Dark Paradise

Chapter 21: I'm Sorry I'm Not What You Wanted

 The pounding in my head wakes me up but I just stay in the same spot not wanting to move. I feel a pair of arms holding on to me and his breath hitting my neck as soft snores slip through his mouth, I know who the arms and snores belong to so I'm not afraid; however I am afraid of what is going to happen when he wakes up. I try to remember the events of last night but all I can recall is puking on Chris and even that is a pit fuzzy but I can recall his words clear as day. I look over at the sleeping boy who is next to me and try to forget what happened but all I can hear in my head is the sound of his voice saying it over and over again. I need to get out of here, I carefully unwrap his arm from my body and replace it with a pillow so he doesn't notice I'm gone. I find my clothes and pull of Ashton's shirt to replace it with my own clothes. I slip on my shoes and walk out , closing the door softly. 

  "Where are you sneaking off to?" Michael says looking up at me from his position laying on the couch. 

  "Home?" I say like it's the most obvious thing in the world.

  "This is breaking news, Drummer Ashton Irwin from 5SOS being left like a one night stand by his own girlfriend on his last day here before he leaves for tour" Calum says pretending to be a newscaster.

Last day here before he leaves for tour. 

Last 

Day

Before

He

Leaves

  "I'm not his girlfriend anymore, so that was false" I say trying not to let the hurt in my voice show. I won't show my weakness now, not here. 

  "What the hell do you mean?" Michael says clearly confused. 

  "It happened... Just never mind. I need to go" I tell them. 

  "Oh and thanks Calum, for last night" I say softly as I hug him. 

  "No problem cutie, I wouldn't want anything happen to our Peyton" He says laughing softly as he kisses my head. 

  "Feel better, Mikey" I say as I move away from Calum to go to the other couch to pet Michael's head. 

  "Why does Calum get a hug but I get a pet on the head?" He asks me with a sad look. 

  "Because I'm not scared Calum will throw up on me" I tell him slightly laughing. 

  "She has a good point, you got completely shit faced last night" Ashton's voice says making me turn around to see him leaning against the door frame of Michael's room. 

  "Did you not notice how drunk she was?" Michael says attempting to defend himself. 

  "There is a difference there" Calum says trying to break the now awkward tension in the room. 

  "Yeah, there is a difference" Ashton says softly as he walks into the bathroom and shuts the door, giving me time to escape. 

  "Bye guys" I say as I walk fast to get out of his house before Ashton gets out of the bathroom and tries to get me to stay. 

Staying is just something I can't do, especially when he's not even staying himself

 I wonder how long it took him to realize I left or even if he has noticed but I push the thought from my head and continue walking the long way to my house in hopes if Ashton decided to look for me he wouldn't come looking this way. I walk into a small store and search for a pair of head phones for the rest of my walk, as I look for the head phones I hear whispers behind me and Ashton's name but I just continue the hunt or the head phones I want.