Dark Paradise

Chapter 5: Some Things Just Can't Be Covered

 I woke up to my head pounding with my face and wrists hurting also. I slowly open my eyes looking up at my ceiling  for a while before I finally convince myself to look at my wrists to see how much damage I have done. Looking down I sigh as I see the marks I have left myself, I must have fallen asleep before the bleeding stopped cause there is bloodstains where my arms were. I toss the blanket off myself as I flinch at the sting of moving my wrists, It has been awhile since the last time I had this feeling. I carefully remove my sheets from my bed and take them to the washing machine and start it. I grab a towel from the cabinet and head to the bathroom to take a shower. I look at my now extremely noticeable  bruises on my face, finally I look away from the girl in the mirror and turn on the water. 

Look at yourself Peyton, do you really want to stay alive anymore? Look what your mom did to you, look around you you're alone. No one would care. Why make yourself suffer"  The voice in my head says as I take off my clothes and step into the shower. The scolding hot water rushes over my body making me exhale the breath I didn't even know I was holding as I reach for the shampoo. I go through the motions of taking a shower like a robot, Wash my hair, rinse, put conditioner in, rinse, wash my body, rinse. I turn the water on even hotter and sink down to the tub and wrap my arms around my legs as the tears begin to fall down my face. I don't know how long I sat crying but when the tears finally stopped the water was freezing cold along with my body, stepping out of the shower I grab my towel and wrap it around my body and head straight  to my room avoiding the mirror.  AI grab a pair of leggings and a long sleeved tshirt to put on before wrapping my hair in the towel and grab my phone for the first time today. I have a fuckton of unread messages.

 From  Ashton: Good morning I hope you're are xx

 8:56 AM

 From Ashton: Peyton?

 9:30 AM

From Maddie: Why is Ashton asking me where you live? 

 9:45 AM

From Calum: Hey look I know you're probably mad at Ashton but could you please respond to at least me? 

 9:49 AM

From Michael: Ms. toruble are you aware I am friends with Maddie aka your best friend? 

 9:57 AM 

From Ashton: Look I understand that you are mad at me ok but I need to know youre ok. Don't make me ask Maddie where you live

 10:10 AM 

From Maddie: Are you okay? Michael and his friends came over. What happened? 

 10:30 AM

From Ashton: Peyton please :( 

 10:56 PM 

I look at the time as I exit my texts not bothering to reply to any of them,  it's 11:15 AM as I walk out of my room to look for something to eat as my stomach growls. I reach for a beagle as I hear the his voice through the front of my apartment making me drop my i on the floor. t

 "What one do you think it is?" Ashton's voice says muffled by the fact that he is outside. 

 "I don't know Ashton! She just told me the apartments!" Michael says 

 "Do we just knock on every door or?" I can hear Luke say as I creep soundlessly closer to my front door. 

 "Ashton has she replied at all?" Calum says 

 "No" Ashton says flatly. 

 "Maybe she wants to be alone Ash, I mean after what happened and the fact that it has only been like three days since you met her." Luke says tying to convince Ashton to go.